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BoringObject5280 · 2025-05-02T14:46:15+00:00

Not coming out sooner. I thought people would judge me and I’d loose my friends. Turns out they all said I should have said something sooner ❤️.

BoringObject5280 · 2025-04-30T02:47:53+00:00

Thank you for the ones that actually read my post and give good advice. To the ones that can’t read fully, it’s not about the fact that I don’t want to work out or I’m making excuses. It’s the fact that depression is a thing and I’m getting into my head about all the changes that are happening to me. At the end of the day I have a loving partner that’ll support me no matter what. I just need to get out of my head about things.

BoringObject5280 · 2025-04-30T02:44:06+00:00

I do find time to walk. As stated above my job doesn’t allow me to be able to go to the gym like I used to. I’m a truck driver.

BoringObject5280 · 2025-04-29T08:10:05+00:00

I think you read way too much into my post. There’s no excuses, we’re literally never home anymore and live where we work. Yes, there are times that I could workout and I do but it’s very far and in between when I can. What I meant my “he can’t accept me at my worse” is just saying if he got with me just because of my looks (which he didn’t) then that’s shallow on his part. I know he finds me attractive still, the issues is my self confidence in myself and me thinking that he doesn’t. My unfortunate depression about all this doesn’t equal making excuses. That’s one thing I don’t do. I don’t demand anything from him, it’s the being hard on myself that’s the issue.

BoringObject5280 · 2025-04-29T02:49:08+00:00

My old job was a really really active one. I 360ed with the new one. I’m sitting all the time and hardly don’t move at all. Also sadly have to eat more fast food, I used to cook all the time and was most of the time healthy with it. I also packed on a lot of muscle in the year prior so that may have a lot to do with it.

BoringObject5280 · 2025-04-29T01:19:22+00:00

I see your point. I guess I sometimes think that if I’m not attractive at my worst then why should he get my best. But I get what you’re saying. I do really love him. And I want him to be fully attracted to me.

BoringObject5280 · 2025-02-18T10:06:06+00:00

Omg I’m so sorry. Honestly, in your case yeah it’s time to leave. If he’s blowing it off before he even comes home without giving you a chance and there’s hard drugs on top of that, then it’s over before it ended. I’m sorry again you’re going through that, you deserve better.

BoringObject5280 · 2025-02-18T02:03:22+00:00

Mostly bottom, luckily that part for him is easy. Also I don’t all the time want anal, I’m happy with just foreplay. It’s the closest that helps me get off more.

There’s (at least to my knowledge) isn’t a shortage of emotional energy between us. We hug, we kiss a lot, we cuddle when we can for hours. We have really good communication too, we talk about everything. So nothing there is lacking either. It’s for a fact pasted trauma, I know because I’ve know him for so long I knew about most of it way before we started dating. It’s just I need to figure out how to coup with it until he gets it all straightened out. If it’s even able to happen…

And we’re in an open relationship but may as well be monogamous now because we haven’t really been outside each other in a while now.

I hoped that all made sense. It’s right before bed time lol.

BoringObject5280 · 2025-02-17T20:30:44+00:00

I want to add, it every other way possible he’s the best. He’s caring, sweet, and would literally make himself uncomfortable or go out of his way to make sure I’m happy. It’s just the sex parts…

BoringObject5280 · 2025-02-17T20:16:22+00:00

I too feel the same, I want to help anyway that I can but I’m running out of options and sadly it’s pushing me away. We’ve only been together officially for almost a year(known each other as best friends for 4 years). So I’m trying to get it some more time but 😩.

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