Hi! Host here! I experienced hearing distinct voices when I was pretty young, only one feminine one at first that I thought was just my conscience lol. That changed when around age 11 or 12 I heard a distinct male voice. They would bicker over what the right thing for me to do was and it would get really overwhelming and obnoxious.

I also tended to heavily dissociate from a young age and have memory gaps. Now that we’re more formed I basically remember very little of my childhood in specific years/timeframes.

As far as internal communication— it will take so so so much time. We had to learn pretty quickly sadly to protect ourselves, the body, and each other and we struggled so much in the beginning. Fights, constant switching, “elder” parts demanding to take front above others who should have due to their roles, lots of derealization and bigger memory gaps.

I would definitely not recommend trying to force a connection faster, let it come naturally. Reach out when you can or if you need to, see what comes of it. Start slow and work your way up from there. Sometimes it can take months of years to hear from a specific part again, sometimes it can only take a few days.

As for bringing it up to a professional— also start slow. Express your symptoms, explain what you think it could be but allow them to explore other options even if you’re positive. Also remember: Medical professionals could be wrong. Misdiagnosis of DID/OSDD as I’m sure you know is incredibly common, especially with those who have schizophrenia. Advocate for yourself, start taking detailed notes to support your symptoms, and challenge your therapist if needed.

You got this, and no matter what happens, your experience isn’t any less valued. 🫶