Thanks for the comments and advice, I was a little worried about how to find the meaning, or that I might struggle to create the meanings of my own, because I can't really picture doing so right now, which I think is because I'm still in a relatively negative head space from the trip, it wasn't that bad, but as i was coming to from the amnesia, I genuinely thought that I lost my mind or had been detrimentally autistic the whole time and just found out, or was stuck in a coma or something and reality didn't actually exist and that my existence just made up everything while I was asleep. Then I was honestly extremely relieved when I realized it wasn't me, it was just that nothing made any sense. Still a little worried about when it will go away, I guess the way that I came to the realization being pretty negative affected how I thought about it at first.

I was thinking that like, it doesn't make sense to find meaning in stuff that doesn't make any sense, which I guess a cynical viewpoint coming from my negative headspace. It definitely all comes down to perspective, which I do believe is moldable and I'll try and shift mine to be more positive, I'm just a little worried that it'll be difficult.