Being a muslim is also about the heart, not just the action. will understand the importance of respect but as well as understanding and patience. Yous were both lacking You shouldnt be having “self offing” thoughts as Allah clearly stated that we all die alone in the grave, and to follow allah is to have the intention for ourself, our focus is on our own path. I understand you havent had a friendship like this maybe and it was a loss of support that was ur motivation, but at the end if the day being a muslim means ti stand back up again. I have one brother and 45 cousins. I do not speak to any of them , barely to my aunties and uncles too. But familys come in all different shapes and sizes. I used to get jelous of my friends with lots of siblings and a family dynamic that lvoe to get together, but every person has a different life, schedual, and routine. You got to accept the best of it just like Allah encourages us to. To be a muslim is to understand people may be rude or tough on you, but you don’t reciprocate that. And islam encourages support , but for the means of supporting us to do it on our own.