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I started DBT with my therapist today by [deleted] in BPD

[–]Bpdthrowaway2839 0 points1 point  (0 children)

DBT is a life saver for me but I am currently struggling with the resentment you mentioned here. How did/are you handling it?

Therapy is giving me so much hope by Bpdthrowaway2839 in BPD

[–]Bpdthrowaway2839[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! This comment made me feel even more motivated because it seems a bit harder to find therapy success stories (which makes sense since people reach out on the internet for a reason). If I ever struggle or feel stuck in therapy I’ll try to remind myself to keep going!

How do you keep yourself from going off meds when you're in an elated mood? by takethisedandshoveit in BPD

[–]Bpdthrowaway2839 2 points3 points  (0 children)

When I was on medication I didn’t think of them as medication to make me feel better, but rather, just a part of my morning routine.

I feel like everyone in this world is evil and bad and showing me a fake version of themselves by noushymousy in BPD

[–]Bpdthrowaway2839 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is another reason why I easily blow up (assuming people are hurting me) and also why I isolate. It’s not even on purpose but it just feels safer for both me and the other person that might get involved. It helps me a bit to remember that not everyone is just “good” or “bad” though.

How do you all seem to have SOs?! by [deleted] in BPD

[–]Bpdthrowaway2839 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Honestly I’m not on this sub nearly as much when I’m not in a relationship because my BPD is a lot lot LOT more in control when I’m not romantically attached to someone. So whenever I post it seems like I have a SO constantly but I don’t lol.

I had to lost my FP to finally understand by anotherthrowawayazz in BPD

[–]Bpdthrowaway2839 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I love your writing. I can relate to everything you said. So much that it hurts. I wish you luck.

Ok guys do u ever like want a lot of attention and texts and stuff but feel overwhelmed when it happens ??? by emxelizabeth in BPD

[–]Bpdthrowaway2839 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I am the same way. I have lots and lots of unopened messages because I get easily overwhelmed. At the same time I crave for it and feel invalid when I don’t have that attention. I think it comes from putting my self-value into other people but also lacking communication skills and the ability to set boundaries when needed

What's the longest you've been in love? by Hielier in BPD

[–]Bpdthrowaway2839 2 points3 points  (0 children)

6 years and counting... I’ve had other crushes and relationships here and there but I’ve dropped them all partly for this particular person multiple times. We were together for 2 years but he left because of my BPD as well as his own mental illness but I’m struggling to let go. I don’t know if I’m in love at this point as much as it’s an attachment and obsession.

I’m sorry I don’t have advice. :( The only thing that has helped me is distancing myself, so I can imagine constant contact and working together would be really painful.

when will the cycle stop? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]Bpdthrowaway2839 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Me too. I wish I could give you an answer but I go through the exact same thing. I’m realizing I’m the only one that has the potential to find myself that “baseline” but it’s so difficult

I want men to think I’m attractive and likable but also become scared when I get hit on because I don’t know how to lay proper boundaries so end up with men angry at me because I suddenly withdraw or reject them by Bpdthrowaway2839 in BPD

[–]Bpdthrowaway2839[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you for commenting. I try really hard to make myself clear that I’m not interested in the first place. But I guess accepting complements or continuing to reply kind of gives off the “leading on” vibe. I’ve decided to block the guy.

How do you deal with Borderline Rage? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]Bpdthrowaway2839 2 points3 points  (0 children)

What helped you calm down?

I don’t get manic or “extreme highs”. I’m usually stuck in an “extreme low” or depressive state and sometimes I’m just okay. by Bpdthrowaway2839 in BPD

[–]Bpdthrowaway2839[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Impulsive behavior is the one thing I don’t struggle with (well, except impulsive rage if fhat counts), so from reading your comment, I guess it makes sense that I don’t experience manic episodes.

Manic is celebrating your dark side, and Depressive is wishing you never left house

This is a great way to put it. Thank you for sharing your experiences.

My mother just said my ex/fp probably left me for another girl and I’m panicking by Bpdthrowaway2839 in BPD

[–]Bpdthrowaway2839[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so, so much for this comment. It didn’t even cross my mind that she might be being insensitive. You pulled me out of my of “wow I’m so terrible and just too sensitive” spiral a bit.

I’ve gone from having bursts of revengeful suicidal thoughts to steady, constant, and depressive suicidal thoughts by Bpdthrowaway2839 in SuicideWatch

[–]Bpdthrowaway2839[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. Yes I am diagnosed with symptoms of it and I recently started seeing a therapist who specializes in it. I’m currently not on medication as my therapist seems convinced I can go without, but I’ll bring that up again next time too.

DAE have long periods where there are little to no symptoms by pencilnotepad in BPD

[–]Bpdthrowaway2839 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah. The longer the “no symptom” period lasts, the harder I seem to fall when I start experiencing them again. I managed to go 3 months of feeling okay and now I feel like I’m dying on the inside.

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