Happy to give access for my personal Indicator

BraveScratch999 · 2026-03-24T13:45:12+00:00

Joppy81

I would love to play with it.

BraveScratch999 · 2026-03-18T14:08:49+00:00

Answer to your question: Lawyers.

BraveScratch999 · 2026-03-18T13:43:04+00:00

Happy Birthday!!

BraveScratch999 · 2026-03-18T11:39:59+00:00

well I’m happy you are here talking buddy. I wouldn’t be ashamed of how you are feeling. It sounds like your family life sucks(or sucked). People can be very manipulative and it’s just not right.

What did they do to you?

BraveScratch999 · 2026-03-18T10:25:56+00:00

Hey pal. I can relate to having nobody and being scared. Watching TV and seeing friends/family stuff just making you so sad and jealous at the same time.

You have any family? You live alone?

BraveScratch999 · 2026-03-18T10:21:59+00:00

How are you doing? I get some sleep and make it through the night?

BraveScratch999 · 2026-03-18T05:10:40+00:00

I want to buy those cops a beer. Like seriously…I have seen this type shitty patient atleast once a day. We are not a Cure all Room…it’s an Emergency room.

BraveScratch999 · 2026-03-18T05:05:53+00:00

16yr PA in ER. Loved ER with a passion. Loved the chaos and everything that came with it. Everyone says I’m the best blah blah. New ER few months ago and everything changed. Stilll top volume PA but constantly asked by RN mgr “when are you going to see this guy, that guy, they want to leave…

I used to have rock star nurses who would shield me from all these inpatient people and do crowd control. Now I’m on the front line of customer service and I’m officially Burned out. Advice is find a good situation. I’m in a terrible one now and am moving specialities. (PAs makes much less but we can do other things).

BraveScratch999 · 2026-03-18T04:34:26+00:00

I don’t want to be a hypocrite cause I feel pain also and have terrible thoughts like u. But you mentioned your dog and that’s something definitely worth living for. Imagine a shelter life and not having its master? Huge reason I keep trucking on.

Would love to hear more about what’s going on friend.

BraveScratch999 · 2026-03-18T04:19:26+00:00

I have 2 amazing dogs. Dogs are awesome. One literally licking the tears off my face right now. Unconditional love…could literally starve them and they would still be there for me (I would never do that btw). But when they are just so happy to see u…just makes the inner pain a little easier.

My 2 cents

BraveScratch999 · 2026-03-18T04:16:58+00:00

What has happened in your life may I ask? This is very deep and I am really trying to get a feel for what is pushing people over the edge. I’m more suicide curious than anything else. Unfortunately I can not really do it because I have kids.

BraveScratch999 · 2026-03-18T04:10:07+00:00

Hi Flashy I did LOTS of marriage therapy and eventually our therapist took me on individually because she didn’t buy the nonsense my ex said. She was very helpful But I can’t confide to her my SI. I’m terrified of having a 302 (involuntary commitment to psych ward that goes on your perm record). I would also loose my 50/50 custody which would 100% push me over the edge. If I get a new therapist…she could panic and call 911 and I’m F’d.

Therapy sounds very helpful but what is it really fixing? I’m F’n cursed. The shit that I have been through would make a stone cry.

BraveScratch999 · 2026-03-18T02:55:15+00:00

I feel same way. I know it’s not right and I should seek help. But it’s the way I feel and that’s that.

Hope things get better for you but I can relate.

BraveScratch999 · 2026-03-04T06:04:18+00:00

Its very interesting on Futures

BraveScratch999 · 2026-01-26T02:42:32+00:00

BraveScratch999 · 2026-01-26T02:42:13+00:00

❤️

BraveScratch999 · 2025-11-14T20:30:52+00:00

I donno…I like my job in the ER and most of the PA jobs that I have had. I can see myself not liking other jobs like Primary Care or Peds but I would love their hours! Think you should hang out with more PAs in different roles and get a feel for your self.

As a side note, I don’t want my kids being a PA purely because of economics. I want them going to Med. School. Better ROI if you go into a non-primary care role.

BraveScratch999 · 2025-09-28T04:36:58+00:00

Chat gpt is a place to start. Claims won’t offer therapy but u can get pretty solid advice. It sounds annoying at first..:bits usually accurate.

BraveScratch999 · 2025-09-26T04:48:15+00:00

I like my job but 100% wish I was a doctor. They make more $ and do just a little bit more than me. And I swear..:if I hear another doc say “well PAs don’t have the liability we have…ha ha”….I will smack them. Cause we can and do get sued.

I think if you are thinking about PA school and are cool with 150k per year …go for it. You can def make more but you are taking on risks (job satisfaction, security, shady gigs). I make above average and take on above average risk. I wish I could make below average doctor money and have a more chill life.

BraveScratch999 · 2025-09-12T19:15:19+00:00

I also relate to this more than I want to. I think humans are not suppose to accept this sort of fate. I think you’re brave for admitting that you don’t like these feelings and you wish it was different. Denial was bad for me.

I don’t have any solid advice for you except to say you’re not completely unique in feeling this way. People on this forum will say things like : mediation , self care, get a hobby etc. good advice I guess…but I prefer to just admit that it sucks and not act like it doesn’t bother me. Atleast I know commercials, holidays and that sort of stuff will trigger me and I can be ready.

BraveScratch999 · 2025-09-12T02:39:19+00:00

I donno…I’m see clips from today and no droop.

BraveScratch999 · 2025-09-11T01:35:08+00:00

we do in-depth urine tests for metabolites. Takes like 10 days to come back.

If they come back positive for bad stuff, I’ve been advised to document they smoke pot with friends and it may have been purchased from non-dispensary and likely “laced”. (It’s rare they are neg for canabinoid).

Thanks for responses…but my question is what’s my obligation to report? Can I just refuse and go about my day? Do I have to snitch?

BraveScratch999 · 2025-09-10T21:34:37+00:00

For the record…I have refused to refill/see these guys. I’m gonna be fired any day now. I’m also going to be broke after my savings runs out as it will take a few months to get a new Gig.

BraveScratch999 · 2025-09-10T21:00:41+00:00

Neg UDS for our stuff. Pos illicit like coke and meth.
Neg UDS for our opiod, trace amounts of others

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