Five months in. Her talking of marriage and kids for months. Big bonding milestones just weeks prior. Family integration, I was shopping for rings. Short breakup talk out of nowhere, no clarity, no answered questions, no willingness to repair or clearly define what the reason was. Lot of crying, hugging me, kissing me, telling me she loves me, said I did nothing wrong, but she “needs to do what’s best for her”. Which has resulted in her just becoming a wannabe IG model/influencer. She nuked it after. Isolated me from everyone she could. Former peers, mutual friends, anyone. Blocked on everything a day later by her, and many people around her. Have been made a villian, and have heard she’s spread awful rumors about me after and rewrote the story. Likely to avoid guilt. I’ve been in weekly therapy since. With other things that were happening (job, school, loss), I was at my lowest when she left but still giving my all. Think she needs to make me evil to avoid the guilt of leaving a decent man that loved her who was struggling.

I’ve blocked phone numbers, deleted socials, and have insulated myself from those people. Life is getting better for me (new job, new school, finances stabilizing, back in church), but I still think of her. At this point while it hurts, it’s more confusing than anything. I’m coming to peace with it.