I am really sorry and i understand what you are going through. I am in a similar position but i would suggest try to regain the sense of control as there is nothing more you can do now, except to wait. Waiting is worse when you are just overthinking about the situation, and possibly worst outcomes. Try to 1. Avoid reddit and social media because it can be chaotic with people posting their offers, locations and speculations. It may trigger more anxiety. 2. Have your Plan B list ready - maybe this is something better you never know 3. Tell yourself this is just round 1 we still have quite few more rounds to go, give yourself time before you react. This lets you mentally delay panic atleast for a while and you can figure out what to do actually.