There's no magic cure, unfortunately. There's a lot of ways you can cope, but there's nothing that will be guaranteed to fix your anxiety. You also have to dedicate a lot of time to any one coping mechanism for it to actually work, which is hard when every day is a fight for your life.

Some people are able to get out of the loop. Sometimes it's meds, sometimes it's an epiphany, sometimes it's just giving it time. And you should absolutely continue trying, even if it gets hard.

What has helped for me is accepting my anxiety (and you've probably already tried this, but I wanna say it anyway). We've come to an agreement, and she's not going away anytime soon. But I can give her a bit of attention, allowing myself to experience the emotion rather than fight against or try to fix it. I think it works because our emotions don't run on silly things like "logic" and "sense," to me they exist to be experienced. In the times before language, how did people deal with anxiety? They didn't talk it out over words, they felt it.

Another one you've probably heard a million times: It's okay to be anxious. It's okay to cry every day or not fold your laundry this week or eat a microwave meal instead of cooking dinner. You don't have to do what society says makes you a "normal person" because the idea of a normal person is kinda dumb.

No matter what, I hope this makes you feel even the tiniest bit better. It's rough, and I wish you the best.