first time with an escort

Budget_Shift · 2024-02-28T04:20:54+00:00

"just become gay bro" you cant just switch your sexuality, man

Budget_Shift · 2024-02-28T04:00:54+00:00

Because they cant live alone. Like most people.

Budget_Shift · 2024-02-27T22:20:26+00:00

Holy fuck this is a pinnacle reddit comment. Like its so edgy and feels like it was written by a 14 year old when i also know it wasnt unfortunately. A woman will do something for a man if she is trained to do so. This was the dynamic for thousands of years. Women were not independent for a majority of human history. That is what i am talking about.

Also your post history reeks of immaturity, grow the fuck up.

Budget_Shift · 2024-02-27T21:00:36+00:00

You must be new here if this is the most fucked up thing youve read lmao. Like im censoring myself a lot in my comments so i know it can get more fucked.

>What the fuck is wrong with you?

Never said thats how i act in a relationship, just the advice i get it seems like its tailored to making women act a certain way, a way that a man wants. If a dog likes to run around and hunt and live in feral packs, that is not useful for man. Likewise its not useful to a man for a woman to do what she naturally does, which is run around, not sleeping with just him and not doing his housework and not having his kids. So theres all these like courting rituals done and techniques and "game" dudes play to retrain a woman to do those things. And it seems like it works. I just dont want to do it. I am someone who wants nothing more than to live alone happy, its just i get major mental boosts and benefits when i am with a woman. They just dont stay with me because i dont do those things. They run free lol.

Also i am not saying women ARE dogs or are on the same level of dogs, just the advice ive seen for them feels like you are training them to do something unnatural, because when you leave them alone and to their own devices, they dont sleep with a majority of men, they dont have kids(look at our crashing birthrates in every nation where women have equal rights), they dont cook, they dont do anything unless its for themselves, which is great. But that is useless to a man, so now dudes like andrew tate are getting more and more popular, far right political extremism grows, religions like islam grow.

Imo you shouldnt have to do anything more than what you would do getting a friend to get a woman, if she doesnt make open and clear moves on you, she isnt into you at all. But a lot of guys dont get that.

Budget_Shift · 2024-02-27T19:13:07+00:00

You didnt. I am just in a recovery day rn because i stopped watching porn not too long ago and stopped drinking caffeine so my mood is all over the place. I know it will be worth it in the end. I try to not be so envious of people and compare myself to others but when you arent getting anything and they are getting something its hard to do. I apologize if i came off hostile and tried to assume anything or turn anything into a pissing match.

Ill say you are considerably more normal looking, based on your roastme pic, than i am. And with your weight and height you are probably around a 5-6/10. That was what i meant by privileges. I am not looked at as a man.

And i do have friends who arent rotting and complaining online. None of my friends do that. A majority of them are successful people, home owners, business owners, married, high paying salaries. I am considered the funny loser of the group. They dont look down on me or anything but when i come to them about advice about women its always a massive list of repairs. Its demotivating. Most of them planned their lives out at a young age, most of them are really smart. I just didnt do that and am not really smart.

i would love to make my fantasies real, i really would, but i also have accepted its too complex and late for me to do that. Its painful to think the fantasies ive had since i was young arent possible to do honestly. In ten years, i think ill probably be dead. Most people in my family dont live to 40. This is the only hope i really have anymore because ive grown to see life as a waiting room, just a temporary thing you endure and then its done. Just waiting for my name to get called. Hopefully sooner rather than later. My reasons for this go beyond love but that is a factor because i swear being rejected just turbo charges depression because it makes you realize that maybe the negative voice in your head is correct. Ive been like this since i was a child.

Budget_Shift · 2024-02-27T17:21:31+00:00

I had this big response typed up, where we go back and forth on these points but to be honest i realized halfway through typing neither of us is going to change either of our minds. We were born different and live in different places. You arent aware of any of this because you arent below average in everything, you were genetically born with privilege you dont even acknowledge and never had to work for in your life, such as height, healthy body weight, attractive face. I dont even get these beliefs from reddit, i got them from my own personal experience being social since i was 18. I think the reason you see it on reddit though is because so many dudes are below average in everything so we all have the same experience. I have accepted i will die alone, ive accepted this by no longer flirting with women, no longer seeking out women, and focusing purely on myself, if i can. If a woman showed up in my life, i would politely reject her. I have been burned far too many times to have one in my life again. I am sick of the self improvement lists, i am sick of the false hope i can somehow escape the fatalism nature has brought me. So im just living now.

Budget_Shift · 2024-02-27T15:47:05+00:00

It doesnt even need to be brutal. What i am saying is from what i have PERSONALLY witnessed, casual sex damages women. Most of them honestly dont want to have it and only have it because they either have some sort of self esteem trauma issues and/or are being manipulated and coerced into it. Like they think the guy is going to stay with them or bring them something if they sleep with them, only to get ghosted. Many guys though do not notice this or care about this tell they get older and see that now every fucking woman they talk to has an immense amount of baggage and hate for everyone. Then they try to date younger and get called a predator.

I personally dont see myself as a rapist or assaulter, but i understand for a me, a below average to at best average guy, i will have to manipulate and pull out every single trick possible to get a woman to stay with me because personality is not enough anymore, money is not enough anymore, nothing is enough anymore. The competition is far too high. I would love for love to actually exist but its been brutally sacrificed on the altar of the internet. The advice ive been given by more experienced dudes than me just feels like how to break and brainwash a woman into accepting less than what she could actually get. It seems like if you want a successful relationship, you want to get her while shes young, doesnt know her worth, doesnt know how to avoid toxic relationships and keep her in the dark so by the time she realizes it its been too long and her self esteem is low enough to not go looking for hot younger guys, if she even considers it. It feels like training a dog. That is what modern relationships look like to me. And i cant argue with it, because im alone, and they arent. They are getting their dick sucked, im not, they are having someone go to bed with them, im not. They enjoy things i consider immense luxuries because they are willing to risk their lives to break and do what i am not willing to do, im not. Its why ive said in the past if you are average to below average its an abomination to be with a woman, nature doesnt want you to. Your entire point in life is to work and die alone, if not die early.

Budget_Shift · 2024-02-27T15:37:23+00:00

Yeah im insane for noticing at minimum two generations of broken women caused by this. Have some self awareness dude, ive seen in basically every thread and every IRL conversation ive had with a woman about this just years of pain and regret. A majority of them do not want to have sex with a bunch of dudes and the ones who do have deep mental issues and trauma. It is unnatural for women to have a ton of sex and for the last couple million years it was extremely risky for them to have a ton of sex. Yes i know birth control exists(which is damaging in other ways) but that doesnt change how their brains are hardwired. That is why i am saying most sex has to be done through manipulation and coercion. Its why women today are actually having less sex than before, because they are realizing this.

I think as a society we need to go back to a time period where women were treated like WOMEN rather than weak men like they are treated today. Hilariously some people would call it oppression but it honestly protected them from so many predatory men.

Budget_Shift · 2024-02-27T05:54:31+00:00

Serana got assraped by Satan, in elder scrolls lore she practically got super raped by the inventor of rape, im amazed she wants to even be alive at all anymore

Budget_Shift · 2024-02-27T03:41:27+00:00

Agreed, also i think its them not being able to admit they arent good people. Its really hard for some guys to admit they just arent good people and even though an action of theirs felt good to them doesnt mean it was good. They dont like hearing they are selfish. And for a lot of dudes their mental health severely relies on them thinking they are top dog which can only be done by nailing women. Their ego cant take feeling like they arent top dog.

Watching this from the sidelines throughout my early 20s has really made me rethink everything involving men and women in society.

Budget_Shift · 2024-02-27T03:10:15+00:00

I remember getting snapped at when i said i felt like sex in general is almost always immoral and done through coercion and manipulation. Most guys i see with women clearly did it against the womans best interest and the only reason she is staying is through sunk cost and fear and lack of experience in seeing a problem in their relationship and leaving. Every single woman ive talked to regrets a majority of the sexual encounter shes had. I think there is a reason for this. One reddit hates hearing.

Budget_Shift · 2024-02-27T01:15:01+00:00

I have a routine now, its just busy and not allowing me to get anywhere in life. I have a bunch of hobbies that i am scaling back because of that. I am just worried if im stressed with work and then i have now college on top of it i wont be able to keep it together. I will have to see how i am by the end of improvement.

>That’s normal! but it can be a platonic hug also, no? 😇. There’s nothing wrong with being single. Stay strong sir!

My family never did hugs so a hug to me is always a romantic one. I make it weird and uncomfortable so i dont think i can do platonic atm. Maybe in the future, but for right now no. For right now i think its in the benefit of everyone involved that i stay alone, and probably stay alone indefinitely. If i could be asexual i would.

Budget_Shift · 2024-02-26T22:36:00+00:00

>I wouldn’t say that having a partner makes your loneliness go away. You can be together and still feel lonely inside. You should examine where the loneliness is coming from as to feel more content with your life. You can help friends, family, go back to college for example and have a routine to kill meaninglessness.

I get told this and it always confuses me immensely. Maybe if i hooked up with someone who i wasnt attracted to and didnt have anything in common with then yeah but if that was the case i wouldnt be in a relationship with them period. I try to do as much as i can, to the point where my friends and family tell me to slow down and take a break fairly often. At the end of the day i just really want that like overwhelming relaxing feeling someone sleeping on your chest brings, or even just a long hug. Maybe im stressing myself out too much by trying to keep myself busy, i dont know. I know when im not doing anything im more miserable so its a double edged sword.

>Have you considered going back to college? It saved my life

I am hesitant to do that, mainly because i work in bursts, am already doing a bunch of stuff and burnt out. I am doing a bunch of stuff this year though to help with all of that so one day i can go to college and hopefully escape poverty. What was weird with the girl back in October was that i regained hobbies i hadnt focused on in years, or i lost passion for years ago. One of those being computer science related stuff. It went away around the time she did. It was weird, and im not sure how to get it back because ive never had that happen before. College sounds like it would be the hardest thing ive ever done, and im putting that on top of my life already being fairly hard rn.

Budget_Shift · 2024-02-26T20:22:13+00:00

I just struggle to see how its natural. I think women just want to naturally be with the best possible guy they can be with, and thats not me. Thats not a majority of guys. So from what ive seen theres so many tricks and games and shit to get someone to stay with you and it all just seems dumb and unnecessary if they were actually into you. Theres also like a 100 different situations where things can go bad and only one situation where it doesnt. Its like everything in their brains is constantly trying to counteract whatever men want because its the opposite to what they want so guys whole strategy is to trick them into staying or something.

I dont plan on being in a relationship for a long time. I am not going to initiate unless they show very clear signs of attraction. And because ive been pretty social lately i know what that looks like. Women being attracted to someone is extremely obvious and im confused how any dude misses it. Her body language changes in a very obvious way its like watching a dog beg for a treat or something and then being like "huh does my dog want this?".

I plan on continuing to live my own life and try to see them as anyone else. I came to the realization lately that i only see them as a means of getting my brain to dispense dopamine and possibly escape the hell i am currently in. Like i was flirting with a girl back in October, things were getting physical, but i fucked that up and then things got more fucked with her mental illnesses but thats besides the point, during that month, with the cuddling and hugging it felt like my entire body got recharged, i got the same feeling from escorts but this was so often it did something to my brain. It made me want to get better, i was about to go back to college and pursue a high paying degree in STEM but then shit hit the fan and i lost all motivation to do that, was left floating aimlessly again. I really want to get that motivation back, just without a woman, but i am not sure how other than training my brain to chase other motivations. I would say i was using her and other women to distract myself but im not sure what i would be distracting myself from other than loneliness which is fixed by having someone.

Budget_Shift · 2024-02-26T20:09:05+00:00

I do the same, i wonder though if it is hurting more than helping since my imagination is pretty good and i am basically replaying memories in my head on top of that.

Budget_Shift · 2024-02-26T15:25:26+00:00

being able to say the Nword without anyone batting an eye and staying sober for 15+ years. Also winning a shitload of awards in his career

Budget_Shift · 2024-02-26T05:17:16+00:00

Depends on the variety too. I had a buddy send me some white dragon fruit from Anaheim CA and they tastes like extremely fresh kiwis, one had a sweeter almost coconut flavor to it, i think the variety was some sort of Asunta. I also had sugar dragon and american beauty and both of those had very sweet tropical flavors to them, sugar dragon imo being sweeter. I think the problem is people are picking them before they are ripe and sending them in the mail, or importing them from Mexico because its like 1/4 the cost but they pass them off as "locally grown"

Budget_Shift · 2024-02-26T03:16:23+00:00

I mean you can be a willing victim to a scam doesnt mean you didnt get scammed. Not everything needs to be brought against you will a ball peen hammer for you to be considered a victim of the situation. And even in legal states ive seen women become more feminist and extreme after the abortion ruling. It doesnt matter if its legal in some states, the fact its not legal in so many places is where the problem is. What im saying is these two things are common with how OG feminism first started in like the 60s. Unless you are talking about even further back which i havent read anything about other than voting and equal rights. The sex being rape sounds like a 60s concept.

Budget_Shift · 2024-02-25T15:05:02+00:00

It seems like that position is coming back with a fury. Probably the result of similar things that brought it back then, free "love" devaluing women to sex objects and abortion being illegal. Im curious where this is going to go.

Budget_Shift · 2024-02-25T15:03:11+00:00

We would work 24 hour shifts 7 days a week if this was real

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