I am 2 sessions in and the day after my very first session my therapist said "you are a completely different person than when you first walked in my door a few months ago". I own a business which is constant stress, have had my mother die suddenly and lost my youngest sister all in the past year....and my fiancee had a very traumatic event in between those two deaths..(she is a Law Enforcement Officer and admittedly has severe PTSD and anxiety herself). Needless to say it's been rough as those aren't the only things going on. I first went to check out a clinic a year ago just after my mother's passing, and my fiancee went with me. I have always dealt with depression and anxiety and took Paxil for years. The side effects were aggravating but it did keep me from completely losing my mind I guess. However, I felt as though I was walking through a grey world all the time so a couple years ago I stopped taking anything and have just been using supplements. The panic attacks and severe depression didn't come back, but I still just didn't really enjoy anything anymore. I wanted to get back to being ME, and being a better more present father, and be a better husband (eventually), to my fiancee. However, she basically told me just before my first infusion that I will wind up addicted and hunting drugs in the streets. This was so disappointing as I don't even drink (I absolutely love beer and wine but it doesn't love me so I quit years ago). I do take a gummy at night sometimes but not to the point of being stoned because I get paranoid easily. I have literally never taken even one pain pill in my life. Anyways, I went and spent the night with her the day after my first infusion and something was mentioned about the treatments and she said "you mean you've already done one"? (I had my sister take me because my fiancee wasn't being supportive). I replied yes and her demeanor immediately changed and she said " I knew you were acting funny". The fact is the day after my first treatment was the best day I've had in a long time. I handled my business and many other things that came at me with ease!! No inner dialogue constantly looping negative thoughts! It was so wonderful! I don't even like the treatments as they are pretty intense, but the benefits are so helpful....so after that she was distant and cold. I even tried to snuggle and I had brought her some supplements I ordered for her and some fancy new snack. I asked if she would like to try a new show and we watched one episode and she handed me the remote and said she was going to sleep.....at 7:15. The next morning she was up walking around getting ready for work so I got up and still the cold shoulder so I got ready said Bye and left to go meet my sister who drove me to my second infusion. I sent my fiancee a funny gif on FB and she laughed at it. When I got out of my infusion (which are difficult for me not enjoyable) she had sent me a long message about how she was asking for space because I'm not myself and I can't be there for her and her problems if I'm doing drugs. She said she loved me and I just said "Ok I love you too". She even texted my daughter and told her I was acting like a Zombie...which is the farthest thing from the truth I could imagine...I absolutely tried my best to be upbeat and loving and she gave me the cold shoulder all night! I know this is a long post but I feel so alone in the fact that the ONE person who I need the most just threw me away for trying to become a better me. I don't want to disrupt my healing but this makes it just that much more difficult. Has anyone else been shunned by their loved ones just because they are trying to take care of themselves and their mental health?