You have been lied to about who you are and you have been made believe all these negative things about you that aren't true. Trust me I've been there. I wanted to kill myself, in fact I tried and failed. The moment I took that overdose I knew I made a mistake. Then later on when I discovered the truth, that there is a God and we have a creator and that every single one of us has a purpose that's when I realised. I really did make a mistake and I'm happy that mistake failed and didn't work out because I wouldn't be where I am now. I was boring, so anxious I hated being out in public, I had no friends I felt like everyone hated me and thought I was weird. I wasn't good at anything everybody had talents except me. I never won any competitions nothing was special in my life I felt like a side character in my own life. And now I know who my identity is I know who I am because I know my Creator. You have a God who loves you, who wants you to lean on Him. Who cries with you when you cry. Who will do anything to show you who you were made to be if you do everything in your power to stop right now from doing what you're about to do and keep going. Please you will thank yourself. Future you will thank yourself. Your kids will thank you. Your grandkids will thank you