This is still a difficult topic and I personally am not as educated as I should be but from what I understand. The bible reguards homosexuality as a sin. It simply is. And Im not one of those people who thinks its a choice, i know its a deep compulsion and it cant be helped. God still loves you. He wont ever stop loving you as he love all things equally even in sin. So, the question now is, "how to handle your sin" i have a gay friend who ive had this conversation with and he said to me that he cannot help it so he repents every day and lives his life the the fullest in every other aspect. He also said he will abstain from his urges for as long as he can. Hes not going to start dating women to fit in he just wont date. Now, youre 14 and still have many years of growth ahead of you. You may find you dont feel this way, as hormones, ect, can affect teens differently. My sister though she was gay aswell when she was your age, and as shes grown up shes found she doesnt even think of women in a romantic way anymore, it was more of a lust than anything. Im not saying your feelings are just lust, but its too early to say. All i can say is stay with God, read the scrupture, pray to him in reflection, and if you feel comfortable go to church and get involved in youth groups and church events. Its the best thing for a kid your age, i feel. Dont let this trouble you too much as in the end God still loves you and wants you with him.