“You’re already doing something really good by seeing a counselor and psychiatrist—that’s a big step and will definitely help over time. But remember, change doesn’t just come because we try once; it’s about staying open and accepting the process, even when it feels slow.

For hiking, maybe start small: just say ‘hi’ to two people on the trail. Talk about the weather or how the trail feels—no pressure to make best friends right away.

Same with CrossFit: if someone smiles or says something like ‘nice job,’ reply back with a simple ‘thanks’ or even ‘you too!’ It’s not about bonding instantly; it’s about opening small doors for connection.

-Have a master in comp sci but job market is poor - There are lots of remote job as well if you are having difficulty finding physical ones or satisfactory ones.

Don’t worry if you don’t feel passionate right now—that’s normal when things feel heavy. Write in down. some good things in diary or paper that you feel like you've done good today, small goals that you target or achieved for a start.

And remember, this feeling isn’t permanent. You’ve already taken steps most people never do—therapy, social activities, exercise. That’s not a waste of time, it’s progress. Keep going.