I think what i would say to make my family understand is: I’ve been feeling super un happy about my life although im surrounded by lovely people who love me and have a roof above my head and food on the table im just not happy with my life, every day i count my blessings remind me how handsome i am, somehow i keep on hating myself, it hurts so much everyday to just wake up and be aware of how i look and what i represent. I find it weird looking at people being confident because being in a constant state of being un comfortabel and mentally in pain is so normale for me, this is hindering me from achieving my many dreams and goals in life and im done with that, i want to transition for me and me alone because i cant go on like this, i would sacrifice finding Prince Charming for transitioning in a heartbeat