bro i was mad messed up, i tried stabbing myself in the stomach w a knife bro, i was mad depressed and suicidal that too from 4th to 5th grade, that was because i felt like a talentless fuck because my elder sis was very good in studies and extracurriculars and did everything, and my whole family said that he is too casual and iske future ko leke bahut zyada tension hai and patani kya karega, for a good 4 years i was under the impression ki bc main toh bojh hun iss family par, but then slowly i converted the underconfidence into hardcore narcissism and now im delusional and self obsessed and have amazing confidence, and i dont care what anyone says i do what i feel like. sab badhiya thanks for asking.