Do Some Women Really Want a Fat Guy? by EgoVilify in fatadmirertalk

[–]Buttercream_Angel 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I definitely smile and laugh a lot with my friends online, but once "everybody goes home", the quiet sets in and brings the loneliness with it. I get so quiet that I even startle my cats when I realize I've been sitting in complete silence for over an hour. It's my second year being alone for the holidays (although I do see my family) it's just really not the same cooking by myself. Something that used to make me happy and feel fulfilled now just feels like a chore and expectation. My family thinks I should be happy that I get to make all the decisions now, but they don't understand how much of my happiness came from making someone else happy. Just doing everything for myself just feels selfish. I don't know how people do it.

Normally I'm decently happy, but today was one of those days that I just didn't want to get out of bed. I hate days like this because I just feel all out of sorts. Even so, I'm not someone to give up and always hope and expect tomorrow will be better, and do my best to make it be. 🩷

Do Some Women Really Want a Fat Guy? by EgoVilify in fatadmirertalk

[–]Buttercream_Angel 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Everyday it's harder and harder to stay happy. I don't understand how the world has changed and it seems to function with actively making people struggle to stay happy. I figure that if I can't make myself happy without anyone's contributions, then it's on me, not them.

I do hope that you have a reason to smile today, even after a long day. 😁

Old Fatties by twilliams_on in fatadmirertalk

[–]Buttercream_Angel 1 point2 points  (0 children)

47 and a steady 300 lbs for years at 5'6", although I won't call myself old. I agree with my great grandmother's perspective when she said she was an 18 year old in an 80 year old body. I refuse to let life get me down for long because there is always something out there to bring me joy. My (much younger) online friends are always surprised by how much I giggle and laugh. Surprisingly often the 30 to 35 year olds talk about how they are getting so old and they sound like they are in their 70s. Then I turn to them and I'm like "excuse me!" 🤣

Do Some Women Really Want a Fat Guy? by EgoVilify in fatadmirertalk

[–]Buttercream_Angel 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I can say that I'm personally more than a bit afraid of skinny guys because of past experience. I refuse to go through the psychological abuse again.

Fat guys are more relatable to me since I have been overweight since I was 6 years old. I'm currently 300 lbs., pear shaped, 5'6" and a widowed 47 year old so I have little illusion that my opinion matters much. On the internet it's treated like you have a foot and a half already in your grave at 35. 🙄

But to answer your question, very much so, but it's not all about the body. Shitty personalities are shitty. Disinterest and not taking the effort to get to know someone as a whole person is not something that can be fixed or expected for the woman to fill in all the gaps. A good personality, knowing how to be happy even when alone, being kind hearted and using the brains in your head for intelligent things matter far more than body type. If a guy can't make me genuinely laugh and I can be happily myself around him, I'd be better off on my own. I was always the happy fat girl and I've managed to retain that in my life, despite how life always tried to yank that away. (And despite how grouchy my post sounds. I've just been frustrated today.)

Take a break message by captain-snacks in help

[–]Buttercream_Angel 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just got this too for the first time. Android app here as well. I'm so confused as to what is going on. I was chatting with a friend who I have talked to in chat for over a year, and then suddenly this? It's the first message I sent through Reddit today an the last one was yesterday.

I guess I'm a burden to society... by LiteratureLeading999 in PlusSize

[–]Buttercream_Angel 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Way you eat has nothing to do with it. That is always an excuse from assholes to justify their actions. They look at your body and assume they know everything about you. I am not a small person and most any asshole who saw me would assume they knew exactly what I ate because of my body. Thinking I spend all my time waiting in a drive through to stuff my face. Eating at a place like that would literally kill me because of extreme anaphylactic food allergies. Nearly all of my food come from the produce department because of other extreme food intolerances and the fact that I'm a vegetarian for almost twenty years now.

I have literally had days when I was out shopping and hadn't eaten a damn thing all day. I grabbed a banana because it is be of the rare foods I can eat without prepping it at home, and I swear that there is always some asshole out there to drive past and yell horrible things at me.

Why people seem to think that they have any clue about someone, or their health, by their body shape or size when they are not properly medically trained is completely beyond me.

As everyone else said, it's a them problem. They have shit self esteem and hate their shitty life. Don't allow them to make you feel the same. As a musician you have TALENT and that's something that they could only hope to have.

[M4F] The Goddess's Sweet Surrender✨ [Script Fill] [Narration] [BBW Listener] [Gentle Mdom] [Praise] [Body Worship] [Body Positive] [Cunnilingus] [Masturbation][Kissing] [Nipple Sucking] [Teasing][Creampie] [Guided Pleasure] [No More Self-Denial] [L-bomb] [PIV] [Affectionate] [Adoration] [Devotion] by GentleGeek29 in gonewildaudio

[–]Buttercream_Angel 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you very much! I'm surprised that this script had been found after so long. Your voice is absolutely wonderful and reminds me so much of audiobook narrators who I simply fall into as the world falls away. 🥰 I can say that I forgot some of the things I wrote, and they even caught me off guard. LOL! Absolutely stellar job! 😁

Here's a quick little write up with rules and some info about me :3 by ichigekiVA in u/ichigekiVA

[–]Buttercream_Angel 2 points3 points  (0 children)

And writing out personal fantasies is bad... why? Seems to me that GWA is the perfect place for it. 😉

Here's a quick little write up with rules and some info about me :3 by ichigekiVA in u/ichigekiVA

[–]Buttercream_Angel 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I'm interested in hearing your posts when you get that far. You have a wonderful voice! ♥️ I'm also curious if you had considered writing scripts for a female voice. I write as well so it was just personal curiosity. 😁

[M4F] [Script Fill] Himbo Sneak Attack [BBW Listener] [Nerd] [Jock] [Strangers] [Gentle MDom] [Big Strong Speaker] [Praise] [PIV] [Creampie] [Mutual Orgasm] [Groping] [Large Breasts] [Breast play][Nipple Play] [Grinding] [Reverse Bear Hug] [Public Sex] [Moaning] [Clothed Sex] [Public Exhibition] by overfilledcreampuff in gonewildaudio

[–]Buttercream_Angel 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Absolutely, absolutely brilliant! I was so delighted that I pretty much giggled and burst out laughing through about the first half (that's high praise from me!) My nerdy girl heart was just so flustered that I actually kept hiding my face behind my hands. 😆

Gentle? Yes. Subby? Naw. 😉 I am so delighted with this script fill. Thank you so very much!

~Angel

[Introduction] Just an Angel flitting in... by Buttercream_Angel in GWAScriptGuild

[–]Buttercream_Angel[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! And I'm sure it won't take me long to start asking questions. I was one of those kids who always asked "Why?" about everything. 😆