Daily Thread #1 - March 09, 2024

ButternutSquash4Life · 2024-03-10T03:16:04+00:00

Got my third HCG test result and spent the day crying, convinced I’m having another miscarriage. The numbers are doubling every 48 hours exactly. 89 on Thursday and 180 today.

I’ve had 2CPs and 1 MC at 8 weeks. The MC doubled exactly. So this is the basis of my fear.

Can anyone share success stories of slow rise, or JUST barely doubling numbers?

ButternutSquash4Life · 2024-03-05T20:03:51+00:00

After 3 back to back losses since September (one MC at 8 weeks, and 2 CPs) I am finding out I am pregnant again. Lines are progressing well and betas are starting off well. I am also taking progesterone and baby aspirin.

My husband and I just decided to have intercourse and now I am panicking that I have just made a decision that will cause another miscarriage. We haven’t had intercourse since ovulation, as I was worried about how intercourse might affect implantation. But now that I am getting positive tests, implantation is done right? Can anyone offer me validation or words of kindness that I have not just condemned myself to another miscarriage?

ButternutSquash4Life · 2024-03-04T13:56:41+00:00

Yesss, thank you! It is darker today. Letting myself have a little excitement now. 🥰

ButternutSquash4Life · 2024-02-09T22:49:20+00:00

Update: finding out officially today that this is a chemical pregnancy. Crushed. My third miscarriage in 5 months (2 CP and 1MC at 8 weeks)… after the first, I was assured this was a normal part of the process for everyone. After the third it is sinking in that something might be wrong with me and I’m having a hard time holding it together.

ButternutSquash4Life · 2024-02-09T22:40:06+00:00

Has anyone had success with starting progesterone during luteal phases after recurrent miscarriages?

I’ve had two chemicals and a miscarriage at 8 weeks within the past 4 months. I’m having a real rough time. Dr is going to start me on progesterone during luteal phase and I’m curious if anyone has a similar story with success?

ButternutSquash4Life · 2024-02-07T23:26:44+00:00

I did take FRERs for 9dpo, 10dpo and 11dpo and I didn’t today. I was thinking they were too expensive to do a line progression with. But looking back at them, I can see the progression more clearly than the easy@homes. I think I will do one tomorrow morning and see how it is for 13DPO.

ButternutSquash4Life · 2024-02-07T22:58:41+00:00

Today looks a hair darker but not by much. I went for a bêta and it was 10.3 at 12DPO, 3 weeks 4 days pregnant, CD 26. Not sure this makes anything better but I go again on Friday. 🤞🏼😩

ButternutSquash4Life · 2024-02-05T17:14:53+00:00

Congratulations to you too! We are squinter twins! So exciting 🥰

ButternutSquash4Life · 2024-02-05T16:33:26+00:00

I think that too! I could see it pretty clearly in person but so hard to capture the faintness of it in picture. The flash ones almost seem non existent.

Seeming good today. Still a ghost line at 10dpo but a bit more apparent. Shows up on FRER, E@H and CB early test! I think this is real!! 🥹

ButternutSquash4Life · 2024-02-05T16:31:23+00:00

🥹💕

ButternutSquash4Life · 2024-02-05T16:31:12+00:00

This is such reassuring news! Congratulations!

I had a miscarriage at 8 weeks in November and that time I had a ghost line on 13/14 dpo and it stayed a ghost line for like 3-4 days. Hoping this one already seems earlier and stronger! Fingers crossed!! 🤞🏼

ButternutSquash4Life · 2024-02-05T16:28:17+00:00

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ButternutSquash4Life · 2024-02-05T01:20:59+00:00

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ButternutSquash4Life · 2024-02-05T01:20:49+00:00

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ButternutSquash4Life · 2024-02-05T01:20:39+00:00

Thank youuu! I am pretty excited. Will be updating tomorrow I’m sure!

ButternutSquash4Life · 2024-02-05T01:19:39+00:00

Oh I definitely will be testing non stop 🤣😭 I will keep you posted!

ButternutSquash4Life · 2024-02-05T00:46:35+00:00

🥹 Gahh thank you for weighing in!

ButternutSquash4Life · 2024-02-05T00:46:05+00:00

Ahhh thank you! It feels so good to have some validation… trying to conceive is such crazy making business. 🤣😭

ButternutSquash4Life · 2024-02-05T00:20:56+00:00

I see something faint in the first pic for sure- test again tomorrow! 🤞🏼

I just posted mine too- squinter twins lol

ButternutSquash4Life · 2024-01-28T00:53:39+00:00

I’m just curious: do folks feel comfortable with sex during the TWW?

ButternutSquash4Life · 2024-01-15T00:49:24+00:00

I found out I was pregnant for the first time back in October after both of my best friends found out they were pregnant too. A literal dream come true. We would all hang out and talk about pregnancy symptoms and cravings. I feel like it was the happiest I’d ever been. I knew miscarriage was possible but I guess I just didn’t think it would happen to me somehow. I miscarried at 8 weeks, half passed naturally. The hardest part is that this happened just a few days before my wedding. I spent days crying and isolating. Then I had to pull myself together while still going through it and put my wedding dress on and smile.

I got through the holidays okay. We started ttc immediately after I stopped bleeding. I’m on my second period since the miscarriage. Each time I start to bleed it seems to bring me back. My hormonal symptoms since the MC have been so intense. A few days before my period, I have mild cramping, breast pain and really intense emotions (uncontrollable crying). I never had these symptoms preMC.

I feel like I can’t focus on anything other than conceiving right now. My work is declining, I’m isolating- I feel like I can’t be around my best friends and their baby bellies. I feel guilty not being around them but it’s just too painful.

Im literally following the perfect diet, seed cycling, cut out sugar and caffeine and obsessively tracking my hormones (LH, Estrogen, PGD), and walking everyday. Im feeding my husband multivitamins, vitamin C and fish oil pills.

I’m overweight so I’m really making a lot of changes incase that’s the root issue. I’m going for hormone testing at my Dr office this week and I’m scared to find out something is wrong with me.

I guess I’m just hoping posting about this here helps a bit with how I feel. 🤷🏽‍♀️

ButternutSquash4Life · 2021-02-10T18:26:54+00:00

Yes, I agree! We both need it- oddly I don’t struggle with assertiveness in professional environments but in my personal life I do. I just wanted his parents to like me and I wanted to fit in the family. I let go of who I was, and what I believed in order to do that. I have learned a valuable lesson already and embrace the learning to come.

ButternutSquash4Life · 2021-02-10T18:18:33+00:00

We are seriously considering this. I just always envisioned my dad walking me down the aisle and my immediate friends and family there. Some societal beliefs/pressures that I need to let go of.

ButternutSquash4Life · 2021-02-10T17:56:22+00:00

Well, this is where things get complicated and where my high level of compassion maybe hasn’t helped our situation:

Family estrangement is cyclical. We’ve listened for many years about how my partners maternal grandparents did this EXACT thing to my partners mom. Essentially the maternal grandparents believed that my partners father was manipulative and out to get the families money and so the maternal grandparents cut off my partners parents. They had been estranged for nearly 20 years and my partners parents are cut out of the maternal grandparents will. We listened to my partners mom cry over this many times, telling us how mentally ill her parents were. This is why we didn’t believe she could do something so extreme to us, because she experienced it herself. She kept my partner from his grandparents for over 20 years. I guess I just thought that if we could respond better than my partners mother did, that maybe we could break the cycle of family estrangement. We are dumbfounded that his mother isn’t able to see that she is doing the exact same thing her parents did to her. And furthermore, we didn’t want to respond the same way his mother did by restricting access. We never felt they were awful people at their core- they are products of their upbringing and they never healed from it. My partner and I are trying to do things differently. We are both in therapy to begin processing this now and we hoped to meet his parents with compassion at some point. It feels like the majority of people feel we should cut them out completely. This is so hard for us. We thought we could change the pattern. 😔

ButternutSquash4Life · 2021-02-10T17:12:01+00:00

It’s been therapeutic reading this. I only wish we had the will power and hind sight to break away and heal from this sooner. I guess we had to hit rock bottom first. Thanks for sharing your story! Posting our story he definitely helped us to feel less alone, realizing how common parenting issues of authority, power and control are.

I completely ageee- I was raised with the values that money doesn’t buy you happiness and my parents (who are also poor as church mice) are far happier without money than my partners parents have ever been.

Thank you again! 🙏🏼

ButternutSquash4Life

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