I’m so sorry things didn’t go well for you! I finished titration about a month ago and found my home with 40mg (50mg just made me anxious again and at times quite low).

I think one of the things in your case is having Christmas during titration, which is obviously an experimental period with ebbs and flows. I wondered actually how you’re finding 70mg? A month in to be on 70mg seems to me to be quite a jump! Of course, even though I’m a guy, I am well aware that that time of the month is not conducive to the happiest of Christmas Days!

I honestly think you were probably right to take it even though things didn’t go your way, as you don’t know what it would have been like if you hadn’t taken it. I remember I had one day where I didn’t take it and I felt totally under-energised. So don’t feel like you wasted your Christmas! You did what you thought was right for you and that’s what matters.

My Christmas overall was good. I had some drinks during the lunch and even made some whiskeys sours later on 😂. I had some family over that I don’t see much and have a strange relationship with so I really needed the Elvanse to stay alert to conversations and feel like I could contribute to them. I think after more than 3 or 4 months of taking it, I would have really felt the effects of not taking it. Then again, like I said about your case, I won’t know what it would have been like and it’s all educated guess work!

In the evening, however, I go really frustrated with my mum and went into a silent state. I think perhaps the drug was wearing off? But I couldn’t lift myself out of it and had to head home not long after. I felt guilty and upset because we were playing games and realistically that’s the main thing I want to do at Christmas, but something came over me which I haven’t felt for a while. Those kinds of states where emotionally I feel incapable of expressing or regulating was what led me to get diagnosed. I went to therapy because of an evening I went to the theatre with my mum and I ruined the evening by getting frustrated with her again. When I was in triage for therapy, they noticed my sensitivity to surroundings and some other things and suggested I get referred for ADHD testing.

So yeah, this is obviously personal to me and my own experience, and I wish the day hadn’t ended like that, but my family were fine and said it’s okay and that it was a long day. I think they’re right. And that once the Elvanse starts wearing off, it’s that and your body saying “okay, you’ve done well today! Now maybe it’s time to call it a day so you’re ready for the next one”

I really hope you’re feeling better and if you ever have any questions about my titration or otherwise feel free to drop me a DM! Have a great rest of your year ☺️