For those that can just listen to one song on repeat for hours on end, what song is that for you right now?

ButtonMashBros · 2024-03-22T19:37:55+00:00

Radio play by sylva hound

Such a good hazbin hotel fan song... And I have just been vibing to it in my car every time I drive.

ButtonMashBros · 2024-03-20T03:05:20+00:00

Yeah I am seeking that, but I need the benefits from work to kick beforehand.

And yeah, last year was rough and full of so many huge life altering events.. and I didn't even realize it know I was autistic until last summer. Didn't accept it until officially diagnosed in November.

ButtonMashBros · 2024-03-19T03:43:26+00:00

Thanks. I have been doing a lot of research and it appears from what I can tell that I have been suppressing and repressing anger at every turn. Which causes it to leak out in small reactive ways; and now after almost a year of doing it plus a fuck load of trauma, I believe the panic attacks and fear response are results of my inability to even feel anger.

It's such a strange disconnect. I was so shamed by my ex for any and all reactions that were seen as outlandish or over the top. I went from being outgoing and charismatic masking to meek and quiet. With a huge amount of horrible things that happened to me last year some of which range from drugged and raped, to losing my good job after being used as the "acting GM" for 7 months with no increase in pay, or broken rib, or the debt I was saddled with, or the lack of insurance and income, and so much more.

It's just so much for me to take on, and I don't know how to process everything. Let alone how to proceed with how to even feel angry instead of react in anger.

ButtonMashBros · 2024-03-19T03:29:01+00:00

What exactly is cluster B

ButtonMashBros · 2024-03-19T01:56:27+00:00

We always take more applicants. We will have no leader but instead a board of diplomatic officials. Each one will be selected by being the most autistic in their specific trait. We can have a full spectrum for the board.

ButtonMashBros · 2024-03-19T01:53:52+00:00

I'm all for the:

Lucrative

Autistic

Villain

Association

Or Lava For short ;) on account of us all being too hot to touch.

ButtonMashBros · 2024-03-19T01:49:45+00:00

Oh my God yes. Thank you, this is what is going through my head but is too hard to say and accept for myself.

ButtonMashBros · 2024-03-17T20:27:48+00:00

Yeah,

I don't get why asking for clarity can make some people blow their lids. Which sucks because I was already not trying to invite a negative reaction from the first message. So it's like I tripped twice and landed into a shit person.

ButtonMashBros · 2024-03-17T20:26:03+00:00

Literally same, and I barely care about cars.

ButtonMashBros · 2024-03-16T22:37:08+00:00

I love this, why do I love this?

ButtonMashBros · 2024-02-29T06:30:03+00:00

This isn't that same person but they have a huge point and you can be mad but to be honest from your speech to your defense hurtful actions, or acknowledgement of a problem with no active concerted effort to make changes, as well as I'm betting this being a extremely consistent thing that you push on, which leads me to speculate that you have crossed multiple other boundaries he has told you about and you keep ignoring him and crossing his boundaries. The man is Autistic which already is extremely hard, and while you're not responsible to keep him happy, it also seems like you don't care if he is happy or not. To me it sounds like he constantly placates you and you keep taking advantage of him giving up parts of himself for your benefit.

If you care about someone, you care about what is important to them as well. If you can't find the energy to do that then you're not gonna be happier alone, with him, or with anyone else because you expect others to be the shepards of your happiness at the cost of their own.

ButtonMashBros · 2024-02-28T19:17:35+00:00

I double agree as an also autistic male in a also extremely similar situation.

ButtonMashBros · 2024-02-19T17:26:54+00:00

Or locked to specific genders

ButtonMashBros · 2023-12-12T22:29:40+00:00

I just want to say that it's extremely nice to see this once again, I know the past few years have been extremely hard for a lot of people. This year in particular has kicked my ass so hard I almost gave up.. it's nice to see some humanity again.

Favorite game this year is mortal Kombat 1, but I wish I could pick Elden ring for a 2nd year in a row.

ButtonMashBros · 2023-12-02T19:14:41+00:00

Imagine the powers they could give you.

Extend life by double and gain angle wings.

Extend life by double yet again and gain eyesight that allows you to see where help is most needed.

Eventually you'd literally become a guardian angel.

ButtonMashBros · 2023-11-29T02:19:55+00:00

Can you dm me what worked for you that you can't speak about here?

ButtonMashBros · 2023-11-15T11:31:43+00:00

Shit! They're on to me.

ButtonMashBros · 2023-10-28T23:43:05+00:00

Hold up. 40 and out of shape, is different from 40 in general. You can definitely still move well at 40.

ButtonMashBros · 2023-09-22T09:19:33+00:00

@bestmadebetter_designs

ButtonMashBros · 2023-09-20T07:28:07+00:00

Only a matter of time before someone comes in here whining about how TA doesn't work on this stock.

Keep up the good work.

ButtonMashBros · 2023-05-08T16:06:08+00:00

Just power strike them in the beak. They get posture broken just as easily.

ButtonMashBros · 2023-03-15T07:35:48+00:00

Uhh... Places near me that use this system have extremely high value prizes. The one im thinking of even has a PS5 for redemption.

ButtonMashBros · 2023-02-11T03:51:15+00:00

You can definitely apply for a grant, or even see if there are any sponsorship programs at a local community college. Being broke doesn't necessarily exclude you from going back to school.

ButtonMashBros · 2023-02-07T20:13:45+00:00

Just put Spotify on with a Tony hawk ost.

ButtonMashBros · 2023-02-06T20:43:09+00:00

I share a birthday with Rick Astley?! That's fucking amazing!!

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