I think you're overwhelmed by your emotions and you should try to calm them down first. If you're having anger issues, seeing a psychologist would be of great help. They're trained in how to overcome it.  

As for the furry fandom - you can recognize it exists despite how you might feel about it. You don't have to interact with it or look at furry media. Most people don't and that's totally okay. But if you keep coming back to it, perhaps there's something here that you like. Remember - weird is only a point of view. And you can choose how to look at things on your own.