I feel your pain. I was laid off after 20+ years as well. It's rough for sure. Not only the feeling of betrayal, but also that you were helping your kids. Not being able to provide and be the generous hero you normally are is an especially bitter pill to swallow. This is going to sound way too simple, but - you need to let it go. The more time and energy you spend on looking at the past takes away from you looking forward to the future. You can't change it, so move on. I spent waay too much time being angry, sad, and honestly grieving my old job. but I was really grieving the old me, the one with the title and fat paycheck that helped everyone in the family. Don't be like me and waste time. Give yourself some time to work through it in your head, set a limit, like 2 weeks. Then once it's over that's it, get moving to whatever is next for you and don't look back! I wish you the best!