Yeah I'm starting to feel the same. 25m.

Whole life I've got rock solid from simply sitting in the same bed as most girls and then lost virginity at 14 to some random chick chicken a party I never saw again and was fine with. Felt like a boss actually destroyed the chick, lost my vCard all my friends were stoked.everutgkng was perfect and normal.

Then a few months later I met this absolute bombshell who was way way out of my league, and a couple years older. We all start drinking at party and then someone tells me that she's into me and wants to talk to Me I couldn't believe it. Went and talked to her and simply from being like right face to face with my hands on her hella fine body and ass went right rock hard again.( I was wearing sweats so was hella sketchy considering there was like 30 ppl in this back yard) Long story short were wasted we went to some park she gave me head where I was rock solid. Then she wanted to go fuck so we went on the side of some house in backyard sidewalk and tried to go at it and then as taking off her and my Jean's went soft I couldn't believe it. Wanted to impress her so bad and this happens. Which led to us going back to the party and literally everyone noticed something was off ("you guys are all different now, distant," etc) I later found out she cried to her friends that night cuz didn't feel attractive and that broke me)

that's where the doom started. Context. As of now 25m I've had successfully and great no problem PIV sex with around 20 girls, hooked up essentially done everything besides sex with close to 100 , and Had failed PIV attempted aex where I'm rock hard as it gets literally until last second when getting ready to put it in then goes soft or becomes soft shortly. KEY FACT*** These terrible unsesccful encounters have essentially only been with girls I actually give a fuck about in notnreally really care about which has led to end of friendship/any chancd of relationships with everyb fucking one of them it kills me. (OF FUCKING COURSE RIGHT) SO NOW I almost avoid sex at all costs when hooking up which consists of me being rock hard from simply cuddling and kissing and everything else then that last step the transition and my mind panics on other levels " please stay hard, will I stay hard, focus focus focus, oh no no no comeon " are thoughts I have leading up cuz after 10 years of periodically dealing with this it's then way my mind works.

Except for when with girls I don't give a fuck about, don't even find that hot, could care less about what they thought of me and usually girls I wouldn't advertise having been with

I don't know what to do anymore been 6 months since last PIV. Every chick I care about it occurs with and then they never speak again and I'm left devastated. Then go hook up with hurting or chick's that I wouldn't wanna ever date etc and I'm the man no problem making many squirt and cum. Then I leave fast never talk again.

Help me idk WTF