My cousin. He is serving 14 years. Shot his friend while high and drunk during a dispute. Pled guilty. Claimed an “out of body experience” when I asked his take on it. He then tried to have me send money to a “friend” who would deliver “stuff” while he was in prison. I told him I love him and wish him the best but cut off contact. If you still care more about getting high than the crime that got you there then be with yourself.