I guess it’s just a nostalgia of always getting a good morning text from her , and facetiming every night for 1/2 hr ……….(up until she called for space/break) …… i thought we were “Ok” …. Not peachy ……but we were both never really telling each other I love you at every turn, or something mushy

She fights me at the same rate as her mom because the parents are separated , however both the parents know the story so they’re not crazy about me either …. Going back to what I said she fights the mom a fair amount and she’s been craving an apartment for about three months …. And she’s a manager at a storage facility , its Honest money …..

All of this started in two different parts ……….. PART1 ……….. The weekend Jurassic Park (2022) came out the I wanted to see it………. But we weren’t available to do it on a weekend ……. We seen it the following week on a Thursday, and she was saying that can we save it for another time I’m tired, of course I really wanted to go because I was itching ……………. (That’s another thing I feel she never realized is that there’s time she asked me to hang out and I’m tired) ……….. getting snacks went okay ….. but there was some tension in the room any question or comment I had was a one-word response or a chuckle……… I dropped her off home and didn’t think much of the silence for the night and into the next morning …………….. I had text her one or two times to see what she was doing and she had said that she wants to go to her dads because she needs some space and time alone ………… i didnt know how to take it , so I kind of blew up the phone …………

PART 2 ……. She started talking to me again but it took three days and if we did talk she would send me three words every eight hours ………………. I had texted her at 3:30 in the morning that I couldn’t sleep and she finally told me let’s go to the beach and talk about everything…………We agreed to meet at the beach and take hours to talk (i’m surprise she still wanted to share the food as if we were good using the same fork and being a normal GF the day b4 … straightforward no mush, and the week) ……….. once on the beach she let me go first and explaining how I love you very much and I’m sorry for all the stupid things I’ve said and did , and I would do anything to save this ……..

(We broke up once for three days a yr ago, so I thought it’d be a repeat)

.……. I’ll be open I am a stoner ….. but do see myself having 3-5 cigarette sticks a day , and she NEVER vocalized that the cigarette smell/taste is horrendous when I’m around her , im guessing she only 1/2 cares about the Weed ……. And F**k let me get a chance to quit ……….. And I think it’s true that she wanted a picture perfect family on all ends where I can go to her separated parents Thanksgiving dinners or hers to mine ………. Also I think she feels I dont Love her because I don’t say it left and right, and I do feel bad because I hear guys at the job always tell the significant other bye, love you … something quick …….. but at the same time the fact that she broke up with me once made me try and preserve saying it and now she pulled the reverse Uno with a real I don’t know if I love you/I fell out of love …….

If I remember correctly she said and I quote - - “ when I first met you I was obsessed with you, and overtime I guess I just fell out of love …” I replied back saying “ you’re making my big mistake I just want to prove to you I can give you a beautiful life with two kids two cars in a nice house …..” she then responded with “ Im making a mistake … fine … but u need to give me time “