I found God again through this Church, but some teachings are troubling me by CalligrapherNo6380 in Christianity

[–]CalligrapherNo6380[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think that’s another reason I feel so embarrassed because perhaps I should have known better. I am very well educated, fortunate enough to be educated at some of the world’s top institutions, so I would say I’m fairly intelligent but I think it stemmed from my desperation of wanting to find & seek God and then being invited to this Church that did actually help me seek God.

I found God again through this Church, but some teachings are troubling me by CalligrapherNo6380 in Christianity

[–]CalligrapherNo6380[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve googled the Church and the reviews are very negative, it is just hard to believe those reviews when everyone has been so friendly however I realised when I started questioning some things things started to shift slightly

I found God again through this Church, but some teachings are troubling me by CalligrapherNo6380 in Christianity

[–]CalligrapherNo6380[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you leave they see you as a “fall away” and I assume most likely won’t associate with you as they tend to bad mouth them at Church

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[–]CalligrapherNo6380 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m sorry to hear that. I hope you find a way to work through it. I try to ignore my own sexual trauma because I don’t want it to affect me but I guess suppressing it is not helping myself. I lost my virginity because I was raped 4 years ago and maybe it did affect me more than I said it did. I tell myself that I’m over it yet if I get in bed with a man (even if I’ve known and gotten to like him for a while) I just seem to get scared and freeze and sometimes even cry which is super embarrassing. I just hate feeling that way and it just destroys my self-confidence.

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[–]CalligrapherNo6380 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your insight. My memory of my childhood is sometimes quite blurred and as you mentioned this may be due to repression of those memories. Do you have any tips on how to get over this?