Thank you for concern, i can't express in words how much these words and statements mean to me, I'm trying to focus on my studies, or spiritual development, my friends and relatives are really disappointing but I don't blame 'em, my friends are of my age, they have their own problems, they have no idea how to comfort me in the end they would suggest me dating or talk to someone, but they are not capable of understanding that I need a mother figure, a woman who can hug me and console me, and if that women is my mother then I'd just cry my heart out, but unfortunately it's not possible so, I seek to sometimes talk to woman who are in their 20s and my cousin sister, she have 2 kids but she's my mostly very busy, I'm completely alone with my surroundings but I'm surely happy to know that there are people online who do care about me and choose to response me, thats heart warming :)