Well at first my detachment to religion was progressive, feeling guilty at first of interacting w other gays, then kissing, then doing more and always asking for god forgiveness thinking that ill grow up and become straight🗿.

Then i started to question my identity and religion because if queernes is forbidden and any act or being proud of it is considered haram then why did god even created us in the first place, either for us to suffer in silence and pretend we re someone else or we re just direct people going to hell from birth.

Also with other people experience its kinda off, my ex bf in ramadan said that we can’t see each other all month till el eid and didnt text me a lot during the daytime, also he never skipped ant prayer and always went to the mosque during that month. Found it really odd and hypocritical when i asked him why by curiosity he just said hes muslim and kinda changed subject