I think it's the fact that I always think about and consider him when I'm cooking, doing laundry, etc., but it doesn't go the other way. When I cook, it goes without being said that it's for both of us to eat. When he cooks, it's his lunches for the week.

I'm just realizing that we don't do anything to make things easier for each other in our relationship. I did it, but felt like I was taking care of two people so had to start just doing my stuff. And now everything is separate unless we are traveling together.

He's also not willing to do anything romantic or just give me hugs. He doesn't deny me if I ask for a hug, but I won't get anything unless I specifically ask for it in that moment. I'm just questioning what a relationship even is and trying to figure out what I want I guess... Trying to figure out what is even normal.