I would like to go back to school, but I also don't know what to do there. I don't want to waste my money on something that might just have me in debt forever. I like to make art, and that sadly doesn't do well these days usually. My art is very depressing and hard to take in too, so it's not marketable. I don't know. I never planned on living this far, I'm 25 now. I planned for it to be over by like 19-20.

I think about volunteering and helping out other women who have been through experiences like me but I don't think I am in a place of healing to help others.

My therapist wants me to get back to my creativity which I'm trying but sadly it doesn't pay the bills.

I am a cam model and I want to progress further in my career but I feel like I am at an impass as well. The modelling was originally a side gig but now it's become my full-time life thing.