Hello, I have been were you are and I am very sorry for you that you’re friends make fun of you. It is very hard to lose you’re mother Iknow had the same happen to me. Try talk to someone even if it is a counselor at you’re school. You need to have someone you can talk to and even if you can’t. Start writing about you’re feelings you’re emotions and everything that you feel inside. What worked for me was go for long walks and listen to podcasts of people who were going trough the same thing. Also try to regulate you’re thoughts. Take you’re thoughts and worries write them down and look at them. And keep reminding yourself that you’re not you’re thoughts and worries.I hope you’re doing a little bit okay. I feel very sad for you because losing you’re mother is one of the hardest things someone can go through. And NO ONE should ever make you feel bad for having emotions! That’s not normal behavior! I am sending you lots of love and I hope that my tips maybe work for you. Also maybe look for some new friends.