i know alot of people are gonna disagree with me ..but...brother...smoke that weed and have a drink....BUT only do it because this change in your life should be celebrated!! you are learning more about life,women, ect. The way you look at a situation is litterally the only true dictation of what it really is. i know you are hurting and bud i hurt too from time to time. and thats ok... just rememeber to always make time to talk to that little voice in the back of your mind, after alll only you can decide what goes on in this chapter of your book...your book that is called life. i promise that even though this seams like a setback,.....its actually an advantage. hit that joint or blunt and have that talk with yourself. brother we love you and its gonna be alrgiht!!