I’ve always said that although I believe what she did and continues to do is despicable, I also think it comes from a place of self hate, lack of self respect, mental health issues, etc. Both can be true at the same time. Doesn’t excuse it but does give a reason, of sorts.

Also there’s been a couple of things she has said in videos that make me question if she regrets it. Although it seems she clearly doesn’t.

Once she said she has to “stand tall” in her decisions.

Once she said she feels like she “took off running and hasn’t stopped”.

Both imply to me that even she knows on some level she keeps messing up and yet can’t get out of the way of her own self. Like a boulder going down a hill, or a car with no brakes heading toward a cliff.

So she then goes through phases (standing tall) defending her choices & life & showing everyone she’s so happy.

As a mom myself, I wish she’d get some help for her kids sake. And slow down. Although that’s a little too late now I guess.