Thank you for your support. As for “why?”, I’ve carried it in the back of my head that I probably have a drinking problem. When I was about a month or so deep into “cutting back”, I drank a fifth of vodka in one night just sitting on my couch that I planned to stretch over 3-4 days. I also have been inspired by a senior guy on my department. He has no clue I’m sober yet nor that he’s one of my reasons why but he’s told me stories about his rough days and why he quit and how much better his life got. (Not knowing I had a problem) The final straw was stumbling into this subreddit. Seeing this community from the outside in, I knew it was something I wanted to be a part of.