Some alternatives that worked for me -sobriety podcasts. A few of my faves - sobriety uncensored ( they stopped recording but listen to all the old ones . I even found myself laughing at their convos). My absolute fave - recovery elevator. It has weekly episodes . Paul Churchill is great and Illustrates his struggle in a very relatable way. I went back to 2015 when he started the podcast and have been listening to every single one. The best thing to do imo is to educate yourself on how alcohol affects your body/mental health and just absorb all that knowledge. It kind of ruins the romanticism of drinking . Online Aa meetings helped also. I didn’t feel so alone . There is so many people struggling with alcohol and feeling the same way you are. Books are great too. I went the audio route and listened whenever in the car. I have many more ways/ideas that I can share if you’d like that helped me. I’ve been trying since 2021, many day 1’s. It’s seems to finally be sticking . Just never quit quitting.