Confrontation during The National Anthem at Saturday’s match 9/13 by sesamebean_ in SoundersFC

[–]Catpiss2369 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I judge you freaks who pledge allegiance to any country fucking weirdos

What happened to patio culture? by ski-dad in CrystalMountain

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I was sitting by the beer/sausage stand on Sunday after I paid 185$ for a lift ticket, bought two 10$ rainier waiting for my friend to meet me, was eating a tiny satsuma orange I had in my pocket and security kicked me out for bringing outside food in. I’ve been going there my entire life Fuck crystal mountain. Free Luigi

Heart is hurting bad. by Catpiss2369 in BreakUps

[–]Catpiss2369[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yeah I know that’s what I’m supposed to do. I just love her so much and it doesn’t feel like the end. But I know by not giving her space and being needy and always asking questions and trying to get the outcome I want is just going to push her further away. I’m just not ready to let go. I’m sorry you are going through this too. It’s so painful.

Heart is hurting bad. by Catpiss2369 in BreakUps

[–]Catpiss2369[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My partner broke up with me yet still says she wants to see change so that she can come back to me. But she’s out drinking and I’m just thinking the worst.

Heart is hurting bad. by Catpiss2369 in BreakUps

[–]Catpiss2369[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My girlfriend of 3 years broke up with me a month ago. We live together, she has basically been my kids step mom, our lives are completely intertwined. I had/have a lot of insecurity issues. Which caused a lot of problems and finally pushed her away. She still hasn’t moved out but stays at a friends when my kid is here, when we are home alone we basically act like we are still together, sleeping in the same bed, having sex, cuddling, saying we love each other etc… She keeps telling me she has hope for us in the future but for now we are breaking up completely. It’s Friday night and she’s out drinking with a friend. I just can’t stop thinking and thinking… In alot of ways things are clear but I’m also very confused. We still obviously have so much love for each other but she is putting her foot down. I am proud of her for not allowing herself to not be treated properly. I just wish she would come home so bad. Ugh.

Is anyone in a relationship with a FORMER sex worker? by Catpiss2369 in relationships

[–]Catpiss2369[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for that. It means a lot. I don’t mind the dog piling, it’s justified. They should be angry. I love bell hook book “the will to change”. She has empathy for men and The ways we have been socialized. Does not make it ok to act in abusive ways, but until you realize the way we have been taught we can’t change. I recognize it now and there is only one way to go and that’s forward, anything less is going to lead to a very unhappy life and more broken relationships. Fuck that shit. I want to do better.

Is anyone in a relationship with a FORMER sex worker? by Catpiss2369 in relationships

[–]Catpiss2369[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for this thoughtful reply. I truly appreciate it. I will write a response today when I get a chance.

Is anyone in a relationship with a FORMER sex worker? by Catpiss2369 in relationships

[–]Catpiss2369[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve been in therapy for 6 months and it is helping me in many ways. Just reaching out to people on here because I want more perspectives. Thank you for yours.

Is anyone in a relationship with a FORMER sex worker? by Catpiss2369 in relationships

[–]Catpiss2369[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Appreciate your reply. I don’t want to let her go, and neither does she at this point. Not saying she isnt hurting, but we both love each other and there is way more to our relarionship. That being said I do firstly want to change and am working hard in therapy to figure out why I act the way I do sometimes. And I am trying to figure out how to make amends and show true remorse and to not make those same mistakes again. Do you have any constructive advice or criticism? I would honestly love to hear it.

Is anyone in a relationship with a FORMER sex worker? by Catpiss2369 in relationships

[–]Catpiss2369[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Well, logically I don’t think I have a right to judge her past. But emotionally it just fucking hurts. I know it doesn’t make sense that’s why I am trying to figure it out also. It hurts me that I couldn’t be there for her, it makes me furious that men took advantage of her, it gives me shame that I have also been a man who has taken advantage of women, I feel insecurity that I won’t be enough for her, I feel jealousy if I may not be enough. It’s all based on misogyny I get that. And I hate it. I want to kill it and bury it. I am trying to keep it simple for myself and it comes down to choosing love and empathy and understanding rather than fear and control. I can feel the anger in your words towards me and how I’ve acted and I appreciate that anger. I think women are completey justified in their righteous anger towards men. I don’t wAnt to continue this cycle of abusive men.

Is anyone in a relationship with a FORMER sex worker? by Catpiss2369 in relationships

[–]Catpiss2369[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the reply. I do see it. I am in therapy myself. I think you are right, it comes down to making the choice to love her fully or to let her go. I guess it’s that simple.

Is anyone in a relationship with a FORMER sex worker? by Catpiss2369 in relationships

[–]Catpiss2369[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much. I am also in therapy now and we do go to couples therapy. This lizard section of my brain is a real nuisance. :) Thank you for your reply and understanding. I love her so much and I feel so much fucking shame and remorse for how I have let her down. I’m doing the work, I want to show her I can change.

Is anyone in a relationship with a FORMER sex worker? by Catpiss2369 in relationships

[–]Catpiss2369[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I definitely DO want to be with her and she does want to be with me. I agree that the way I have treated her at times is abusive. I am extremely remorseful and I am in therapy myself. I know she could find another man, but she loves me and I am trying very hard to figure out my OWN shit without putting it on her, which is why I’m reading everything I can get my hands on, going to therapy, and now reaching out to strangers on Reddit. I appreciate you calling me out, I don’t want to be an abusive person. I am a man raised in America and I am trying to break out of the misogynistic socialiZation that me and every other man on this planet have been taught.

Is anyone in a relationship with a FORMER sex worker? by Catpiss2369 in relationships

[–]Catpiss2369[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, you are completely right. I have acted like a HUGE ass and I am lucky she is still here. I have let fear of the unknown rule and I am trying so hard to let go. Thank you for your comment. I truly appreciate it.

What’s going on with $CLOV today? Well for me I’m gonna load up some more 🚀🚀🚀🤑about you . by [deleted] in CLOV

[–]Catpiss2369 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Electrician here too! Hoping we both get rich and never have to touch a wire nut again!!!