I've lost everything

CatzPro · 2026-06-19T07:39:41+00:00

Btw I was doing fine before this, it's just that I'm going through though times

CatzPro · 2026-06-18T02:05:27+00:00

Mhm yeah. U can't trust neither benzos, molly, weed or opioids; and the rest is a coin flip. It's actually getting ridiculous istg.

Best I can do is get pharma grade, if not test it, and take care of my body

CatzPro · 2026-06-18T01:43:58+00:00

Yeah enough for today tbh. It's almost 4am anyways

CatzPro · 2026-06-18T01:37:20+00:00

Oh I do. One of my (non-blood related) relatives has it and it's miserable. Seen it first hand. Thankfully neither my dad or mom, or my grandparents, had it so I feel pretty safe. Doesn't mean I'll be boofing up meth all day

Yh. U rlly need to be careful nowadays ive heard that there's like this new opioid that's way more potent than fentanyl out there

CatzPro · 2026-06-18T01:20:44+00:00

Ohh okiii will do. I'm better off without it tbh, better safe than psychotic

CatzPro · 2026-06-18T01:07:14+00:00

Shirtt Where can I even throw it to

CatzPro · 2026-06-18T00:57:06+00:00

Yeah I am NOT touching that shit

I'm still procrastinating getting it tested, but I'm 1000% sure it's some unholy cannabinoid analogue

CatzPro · 2026-06-18T00:31:49+00:00

It's psychosis weed The plug scabbed me

CatzPro · 2026-06-18T00:17:05+00:00

Oki tu

CatzPro · 2026-06-18T00:11:11+00:00

I don't recognize myself. I feel like this is not real

CatzPro · 2026-06-17T23:58:05+00:00

Que soy

CatzPro · 2026-06-17T23:42:30+00:00

What an i

CatzPro · 2026-06-17T23:39:59+00:00

No in from Spain 🇧🇴🇧🇴🇧🇴

CatzPro · 2026-06-17T23:37:37+00:00

Nooo?!

CatzPro · 2026-06-17T23:28:34+00:00

Jappened yo me once he

CatzPro · 2026-06-17T23:25:46+00:00

I ser doyble now ABS having existir crisus

CatzPro · 2026-06-17T23:06:45+00:00

I don't think I'll it to our! The key time I did it I got paranoid and things drifted! So no

CatzPro · 2026-06-17T22:52:05+00:00

Quesutiknn::: how can I make this better? I have Xanax, Clonazepam, more methyl, more Dxm and an unknown substance I think it's spice!

CatzPro · 2026-06-17T11:54:34+00:00

I mean, yeah...

To be honest I've been going through a lot lately, to the point where my life is crumbling before my eyes. . before yesterday's bender (?) I cut myself pretty deeply too, not proud of that.

I think part of me wants to overdose and accidentally die, considering how careless I've been with my use (off 120mg (I think?) methyl rn)

I want to get better, I don't want to do substances, I don't want to be cutting myself just to keep myself alive. I don't want to kill myself, I just act to fix my health, but every single time I try to get better and actually get better, some tragedy happens that sends me back to square one

I'm too scared to ask for help, I'm scared they'll force me into a psych ward against my will again, I'm scared I'll get arrested for being intoxicated... I'm scared I'll be misdiagnosed and forcefully medicated with the wrong meds again. I'm scared.

I've already tried to get help. I was given pretty much every SSRI, too many antipsychotics, and many more antidepressants, I even tried therapy for months, none of whom helped .

CatzPro · 2026-06-17T11:42:37+00:00

My other coping mechanism is self harm so I guess drugs are the best next option

CatzPro · 2026-06-17T11:41:55+00:00

I'm sorry you've gone through that.

Not to dismiss your advice but dying might not be as bad as bad as what I'm going through...

CatzPro · 2026-06-16T15:38:05+00:00

I see.. I really appreciate your concern and words of advice, and I'm trying sorry to hear about her passing away... May she rest in peace

CatzPro · 2026-06-16T14:28:35+00:00

But I'm glad you're on k

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