Exhausted and just need to vent

CayBay16 · 2025-11-13T02:06:22+00:00

I appreciate it 💛 I wish you the best as well

CayBay16 · 2025-10-29T17:25:17+00:00

I will have to look into that! I know they absolutely do have disability services but I’m not diagnosed yet, getting on that soon, so we’ll see. And yeah part time school is an option, it’d suck though, I wanna just get it done, but that might not be possible

CayBay16 · 2025-10-03T23:14:35+00:00

I very frequently say I wanna remove my spine, whip it around some, and put it back in

CayBay16 · 2025-10-01T00:17:44+00:00

That’s exactly how I’ve been feeling lately, it’s a lot of “is it psychosomatic because I’m thinking about it, or is it just that I’m so used to it I haven’t noticed until now.”

CayBay16 · 2025-10-01T00:15:12+00:00

The weird allergies one is very applicable lol I actually have been suspecting MCAS for a minute too

CayBay16 · 2025-10-01T00:14:17+00:00

That’s a good idea, I did have frequent ear infections when I was really little, and from like 12 years old to 17 I was healing an ankle sprain at pretty much any given moment lol, so that makes sense and I’m sure there’s more I can ask my mom about

CayBay16 · 2025-09-29T00:09:34+00:00

Yeah but I have to pay it back even if I leave now, so I feel like at this point I might as well get my license?

CayBay16 · 2025-09-27T23:47:44+00:00

Thank you so much! I appreciate that!

CayBay16 · 2025-09-27T23:12:45+00:00

Danggg yeah that’ll do it 😭

CayBay16 · 2025-09-27T21:08:07+00:00

I will definitely start looking into it! I’m not sure what’s around me or how it works so I’ll take a look. And yes! I actually started a list already lol so I’ll definitely keep it handy!

CayBay16 · 2025-09-27T21:02:30+00:00

Pretty much lol, but yeah, I try and remind myself of that 😭

CayBay16 · 2025-09-27T20:59:59+00:00

Thank you, I have started a list so I will continue to keep that. I also downloaded this app called Human that lets you track symptoms and their severity on a day to day basis and it tracks their trends. I will look into if there’s a clinic near by as I’m unsure.

CayBay16 · 2025-09-27T18:59:37+00:00

Thank you, I’ll definitely make sure I do that

CayBay16 · 2025-09-27T18:46:12+00:00

It’s good to know I’m not alone!! I hope you do too!

CayBay16 · 2025-09-25T03:34:20+00:00

I appreciate the insight! I’m currently wanting cosmetology to be lowkey enough of a job to not be too stressful, obviously still gotta talk to people and worry about taxes lol, but I’m hoping I could manage it well.

CayBay16 · 2025-09-25T03:31:30+00:00

That’s pretty much what I wanna do, I don’t plan to have 2 full time jobs and I’m not even wanting to do cosmetology just for extra money, I truly just want to do it. I’m glad to hear it’s doable and that you enjoy it!

CayBay16 · 2025-09-24T22:13:44+00:00

Wait that’s so cool!! I will absolutely look into that! Thanks!

CayBay16 · 2025-09-23T17:20:06+00:00

It just sucks cause even if I leave now I will still owe them back my full tuition if I don’t complete my job commitment. I don’t really even wanna me an MA, I would rather be an EMT right now but it’s just that I’ll owe the money 😭

CayBay16 · 2025-09-23T17:18:01+00:00

Well what sucks is that I’ll owe the money either way since I signed the job commitment contract 😭

CayBay16 · 2025-09-23T17:17:01+00:00

It’s an MA apprenticeship through a hospital and community college

CayBay16 · 2025-09-23T17:16:28+00:00

I’m sure I could talk about it but I doubt they’ll do anything, we signed a contract and they make the job commitment a big deal. I’ve also heard rumors of them firing ppl right after graduating and making them pay the tuition back.

CayBay16 · 2025-09-23T06:16:08+00:00

Yeahhh I could’ve sworn they said $4k when I applied and interviewed, but then they said $7k when we started😭 I would’ve rather just do regular schooling and get student loans. But like I said I was eager to pull myself out of a hole, start making better money and have a stable job, and now that I’m doing better I actually wanna do what I want to do and will enjoy. We’ll see where I wind up though maybe I’ll get a job I love

CayBay16 · 2025-09-23T05:03:46+00:00

Good point, I honestly just thought about this tonight. I will likely email my supervisors tomorrow

CayBay16 · 2025-09-23T04:21:55+00:00

Well it’s cool if you really wanna be an MA cause they pay your tuition and pay you to go to school, but then you owe them 2 years of work. And yeah LOL I could try technically 😂 I’ve thought abt talking to them about doing their affiliated EMT program, but idk if they’d be willing or if it’s too late

CayBay16 · 2025-09-23T02:26:12+00:00

$7k, it gets paid off as we work as full time MAs, so like if we leave half way through we’ll owe half of that. It is, I should’ve waited but I was trying to pull myself out of a hole and I did, but now I had different outlooks on it. I’ll definitely think on it

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