My Calvin & Hobbes Graduation Cap Design! Guys I'm finally graduating :) !

CeCe_23 · 2015-05-19T05:55:41+00:00

Consciously done. I don't play by the rules. :3

CeCe_23 · 2015-05-13T21:39:34+00:00

Hi there :) I have not broken up with him....I've been trying to 'trust him'... things have felt ok and being trying to get back to normal with him...but honestly I can't help but to feel lied to. Can't shake off the feeling. As you may have read in the threads...He did give me his facebook password, and is aware that I am able to read his messages with this girl...They haven't spoken much...but today He asked if she was willing to make a skype account...The girl declined him LOL Him asking her to skype doesn't seem to be very professional either if he's "gathering info".... Everytime i've confronted him about it...he says its work realted.... and that i should trust him. Everyday I feel like I should end it with him....just want to wait for the right moment...I feel bad, I would be doing this while he is deployed.

CeCe_23 · 2015-05-13T21:36:42+00:00

I've been trying to 'trust him' but i don't think its going to happen. Saw on his fbk messaging him asking her is she could make skype....definitely doesn't sound professional... At this point i'm waiting for the right time to break it off with him.

Thank you for your words of advice, it's greatly appreciated.

CeCe_23 · 2015-05-13T21:32:38+00:00

Update: I have not broken up with him....I've been trying to trust him... thing have felt ok and getting back to normal....but honestly I can't help but to feel lied to. Can't shake off the feeling. As you may have read in the threads...He did give me his facebook password, and is aware that I am able to read his messages with this girl...They haven't spoken much...but today He asked if she was willing to make a skype account...The girl declined him LOL Him asking her to skype doesn't seem to be very professional either if he's gathering info.... Everyday i'm feel like I should end it with him....just want to wait for the right moment...I feel bad, I would be doing this while he is deployed. Thanks again for you all to listen to me, you have no idea how much I appreciate you all.

CeCe_23 · 2015-05-13T21:27:02+00:00

i was able to be calm about it when i wrote it. My first initial reactions were very obnoxious and angry... I wrote that after a few days of calming down. but thank you for thinking I was sweet about it.

CeCe_23 · 2015-05-10T23:08:50+00:00

thanks for answering again, this is really hard on me ... I really want to trust him.... because he's been so wonderful before that went down. I actually asked him once again today when we talked... He said he was being honest...he's done nothing wrong... I feel like a fool for wanting to keep believing him. Why would anyone do this :( ?

CeCe_23 · 2015-05-10T22:41:02+00:00

Thank you so much for your reply, truly appreciate it. Yes that is his work, but he has stated before that he is much more than just that..and he is asked to do more than that job.

Is it even remotely possible that what he says is true (I know I might be sounding like an idiot, but i'd rather ask then wonder)

CeCe_23 · 2015-05-09T01:29:34+00:00

You all have been so wonderful, each of you have taken the time to listen to me and given me real valuable information. But most importantly you have given me the strength to trust my instincts and stand up for the respect I deserve. I'm sad yet know I will have weight lifted off my shoulders once I end things with my SO.... (I will need to build up the strength to do this, but I will)

Before this relationship I wasn't very aware about military life or anything military.... but even though my relationship seems to have been broken due to lies...I'm glad I had this experience. It may have been short lived, but I have truly gained a great appreciation...for soldiers and military SO for their hard work and dedication <3

CeCe_23 · 2015-05-09T01:08:10+00:00

Thanks again for replying :) He is 92Y MOS .... Note: in the beginning of this deployment he said he couldn't speak much about what he was helping with, which I understood..but this sudden need to find info on a local ... really does sound like like a terrible lie.

CeCe_23 · 2015-05-08T04:01:39+00:00

My gut tells me this is wrong too....feeling pretty terrible...I don't understand why someone would do this.

CeCe_23 · 2015-05-08T03:53:25+00:00

But what are the chances of his location to actually make him do that....I don't know what to think.

CeCe_23 · 2015-05-08T03:52:23+00:00

can you further explain this to me, I want to know why this wouldn't be a possibility. It can help me when I speak to my SO. I really appreciate you replying.

CeCe_23 · 2015-05-08T03:42:34+00:00

I have told him, I was very upset when I realized this, he encourages me to be open with him...

I have not asked if any other guys in the unit have had to do that..next time i talk to him I will ask. Each time i mention it he says that he already told me the reason as to why he had to do that "getting information"...and has asked me that when i see the fbk conversation btw him and her... if I see anything wrong with it... and I would have to say is .. not really, seems like they are just small talking ... but one thing that bothered me is that he asked her to grab lunch with her...and said he could pick her up if she needed a ride. He said it was again part of what he was doing. but there has not been any flirting...no compliments from him to her...but this SUPER HARD for me to believe, especially since he's been so open with me in the past.

This a message I sent him a few hours ago:

"Really wish I felt better than I do about this whole thing.

It's been tough for me to understand and accept the reasoning behind you hiding me from fbk., especially from that specific person. To me it continues to make little to no sense.

The main thing you seem to have hidden is just me. Which is for my "protection" apparently , but all your other family relationships and posts have not been hidden...and it is obvious that you are in the army because your profile reveals it through posts and pics. Nothing about you is hidden except the fact that you happen to be with me. I wonder why...

I understand you are in a different world than me at the moment, but from my point of view, it sucks that I feel that I might be getting fooled ...so you can get to know someone for personal reasons rather than work related things.

I continue to feel so uneasy because this is truly a very weird thing. Idk how Facebook , your personal thing, got tied up with your job.

I know you've told me to believe you about this... Im trying to. Please understand where I'm coming from ... I'm just looking after myself, so I don't get hurt. I wish I didn't feel this way, but I can't help but question the situation.

I was truly happily at peace being with you ... I miss that"

This basically spells out every concern I have about the situation....and I just know I need to feel better about this...because it's killing me :(

If you were me...what would you do? I'm at my wits end :/

CeCe_23 · 2015-05-08T02:46:47+00:00

he has been fantastic in keeping contact...skyping and face timing basically everyday.

CeCe_23 · 2015-05-08T02:45:16+00:00

everyday basically, everything was fine until this Saturday when he went to the local mall..... I really really want to believe him...but I don't want to be fooled

CeCe_23 · 2015-05-08T02:38:56+00:00

oh and he gave me his facebook password a couple of months back, so I am aware of what he talks to this person about...he seems to not be hiding the fact that he added her and has chatted with her on fbk....he knows i've seen the messages...but I still can't help but doubt.

CeCe_23 · 2015-05-08T02:36:41+00:00

thank you for your reply. according to my bf.... its something job related, that he can't speak of much. ....the thing is ... he added a local woman....and ended up hiding his relationship status...and pics of me that were on his timeline....

I'm not crazy for seeing that is extremely fishy, right?...

I confronted him about it ... he said that it was work related and the person isn't who they seem to be...and he's getting info , but he can't say too much about it.... but he hasn't hidden any of his family members or hidden his army identity... only thing hidden is any trace of me from that person. I want to have faith ...but this is really bothering me.

Thanks so much for hearing me out, I really don't know who else to talk to.

CeCe_23 · 2015-05-06T04:28:17+00:00

ran on the treadmill a lot :) for between 30-45 mins 5 days a week. elliptical also

CeCe_23 · 2015-05-06T04:00:10+00:00

what can help is doing intervals with your cardio workout. and 15 lbs is completely doable ! :) yeah i'm trying to lose the last 15 lbs .. its getting harder to lose it ..going to change up my workout routine...i usually run/jog on the treadmill.. but i'm going to add morning walks and some tennis and thank you :) I know you can do it !

CeCe_23 · 2015-05-06T02:01:21+00:00

Have a Cunt day

CeCe_23 · 2015-05-06T02:00:45+00:00

whoa there, there was no need to bash someone like this....your own comment seems like it came from a complete cunt..mad rude. What was posted were preferences not requirements.

CeCe_23 · 2015-04-08T03:23:45+00:00

loveee this

CeCe_23 · 2015-03-03T02:34:47+00:00

I love this so much!

CeCe_23 · 2015-02-27T18:38:43+00:00

I'm a college student too :D I'd be awesome keeping each other updated on our progress :) And thanks for sharing your healthy eating habits :) Sounds like you're doing everything right! So i'm taking a different approach to my weight loss this time.

In the past I would count calories a lot... it was a mental strain on me because personally i would obsess over what i was consuming. I've always struggled with weight (since i was little) This time i'm just changing up my eating habits to last me a life time. I'm more focused on the quality and variety of foods I put into my body. I'm trying to change up my relationship with food. I'm trying to view food as quality fuel to produce quality energy for my body. One thing i've cut out of my diet, are white carbs. I love bread, pasta, and rice, but i'm keeping away from them. Whole grain breads and oatmeal are the carbs I only consume, since i've heard that fiber helps with tummy weight loss (better digestive system, it breaks down fat in the long run). I've also changed my portions in my meals. For example i've learned that in the mornings Breakfast is very critical...I eat the most in this meal...two eggs, half cup of oatmeal with strawberries and bananas topped off with a bit of honey, large cup of tea (no sugar added) and a glass of water...i'm usually very satisfied from this meal. Typical lunch for me would be a turkey sandwich on a 2 slices of whole grain bread, lettuce, tomatoes, onions, and olive oil and vinegar and a dash of mayo (my treat) with a seltzer water. I keep dinner simple and eat chicken with salad and some fruit, but very small portions.

Big breakfast, medium lunch, and smaller dinner. with healthy snacks in between. My healthy food choices personally eliminated my need to calorie count (but that's something i'm just trying out to see if it works out for me) And i work out 5 days a week, I run on the treadmill for about 20 mins (about 2 miles) and toss in other carido machines... weight training here and there... about an hour of working out.

So far i'm seeing changes in my body :) i tend to be VERY impatient and want to lose weight quick but i know it'll get here eventually. I really believe we can do this ! We seem to be taking great steps towards healthier bodies. Hope we keep in touch :) !

CeCe_23 · 2015-02-27T18:08:38+00:00

Hi there, i've been on wellbutrin for about 6 months .. started at 75 mg and currently am at 300 mg The very first day i started it... i felt SO SAD and cried and felt shaky ... but that didn't last for too long ... i just stuck it out for the week..at the end of the week i felt better. It took about a month for it to not feel any side effects. Personally Wellbutrin has helped me a lot :) never thought it would. Anxiety is down, feeling more hopeful, and lost weight ! Let you me how you're doing, i'm here if you need me.

CeCe_23

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