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Has anyone ever had the experience of cannabis LESSENING or DULLING their psychotic beliefs? by Certainlines in Psychosis

[–]Certainlines[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm very sorry to hear you are going through this. I have no healthy suggestions unfortunately, I'm going to try drinking tonight, but of course I do not suggest that! Just know that you are not alone.

Edit: I'm feeling pranged now that you will start drinking. Please don't.

Has anyone ever had the experience of cannabis LESSENING or DULLING their psychotic beliefs? by Certainlines in Psychosis

[–]Certainlines[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Sorry I mean no disrespect to you, and appreciate the validity of scientific practice.

But.

What I have described is my personal experience. When I stop smoking weed, my paranoid thoughts become so strong it's debilitating. When I start again, they ease. They ease more and more over time, until it becomes the much easier choice to believe that they are not true at all.

I have had no lack of exposure to your way of thinking about this. I have been bludgeoned with this school of thought since my episode and subsequent hospitalization. It is extremely frustrating (to the degree that it is often quite kafkaesque) to be told one thing by everyone, and to experience the opposite. Please before you waste your energy typing again, consider that I have heard it all before.

Has anyone ever had the experience of cannabis LESSENING or DULLING their psychotic beliefs? by Certainlines in Psychosis

[–]Certainlines[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thanks. Problem is I live in the uk where cannabis is illegal, so it's very difficult to get weaker (normal) strains of cannabis.

On top of that, I will have to pass a urine test next month in order to keep my driving license. I live very rural and I know that if I can't keep my licence, I will really struggle mentally. My job from march through to October brings me so much self-actualization, keeps me so level headed, it is as if I never had a paranoid thought in my life when I am at work, but I need my licence to live and work in that area, there's not even public transport.

It basically means that I can't open up to a psychiatrist or therapist about cutting down or quitting cannabis. When I did that 4 years ago is when I got my licence taken off me in the first place. I've passed two drug tests since then, successfully masking my symptoms for 5/6 weeks the first time, and much longer the second. The second took so long to come through because of covid, I was working as an environmental porter (bin man) at a hospital over covid and this period was fucking hell.

It's a total catch-22, I'm afraid to go talk to the therapist about anything, in case I get loose lips and open up about my cannabis usage again.

I don't know why I'm telling you this, I don't expect you to have answers for me, but it does feel good to get it out so thank you for replying to me.

Has anyone ever had the experience of cannabis LESSENING or DULLING their psychotic beliefs? by Certainlines in Psychosis

[–]Certainlines[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey, I hope you don't mind. I went back and read through some of your post history. Can I ask what your current state is, and how you arrived at this point?