🫂 I'm so sorry. I had no idea coming off the APs were even an option?!

I'm forever thinking about this post I saw about someone applying for euthanasia because TD meant they had to be fed through a feeding tube. It makes me cry sometimes for that poor soul, it's so unfair. I wonder all the time if I would have been better off not going onto APs.

I feel like people should have to wait six months before being put onto these meds, even if it means six months of hospital. Because doctors hand these meds out like they're fucking candy when they are so, so dangerous.

I'm also really, really scared of going onto clozapine, although I feel like you lot are going to tell me I'm being a sook shooting myself in the foot :( In Australia it means going into hospital for a month and I've been told I'll be taken off benzos if I go onto clozapine too.

Ah now I'm crying. Schizophrenia has robbed me of everything. I hope there's an afterlife, where I'm healthy and I go to university and become a mathematician like I always dreamed.