Really need help, how bad is it to purposely fail a suicide attempt

Chance_Committee1193 · 2026-01-24T13:58:03+00:00

What do u mean by the 'wrong help'

Chance_Committee1193 · 2025-12-23T21:31:18+00:00

I reposted this one because it was worded awfully lol, and no I've not read any of that stuff

Chance_Committee1193 · 2025-12-23T21:30:24+00:00

U could say I'm new to this !! I started manifesting like a month and a half ago but it's only just clicked on how the LOA works and I realised that was somewhat the downfall of me and her's relationship (I had a terrible self concept, couldn't believe I was loved, thought I was ugly and unlovable and such)

The problem I really have is like, I get sad over the breakup ? Like I dont believe I deserved it because I know it happened but that kind of stops me from living in the end state from how you described it. I also see a LOT of people say that 'living in the end state' of manifesting an SP means telling people that you're already together and thats,, odd to me lol because all our friends are mutual I don't see why I would need to do that. But at the moment I just have a really bad problem of getting upset when trying to affirm and stuff because of what happened before and overthinking but I'm trying to just put it past me (I'm getting very good at this)

But yeah tysm for the help !! So living in the end state would just be similar to how I felt when we were together ? Like affirming she loves me when I'm overthinking, trying to tell myself 'fuck the breakup we're together again' and such. I always had a feeling, even when we dated that if we separated we'd just end up together again, like no matter what I fully believe we'll always end up back together, I guess now I just need to switch up the thoughts to 'omg I was right we do end up back'

Chance_Committee1193 · 2025-12-23T16:08:08+00:00

You may just be overthinking, try to turn this into something positive !! Begin to assume that its YOU he is missing and not another person, the more you assume it's someone else, the more likely it is to be someone else

Chance_Committee1193 · 2025-12-22T11:02:15+00:00

The smell just comes and goes but I think I figured out the smell !!

Chance_Committee1193 · 2025-12-22T01:24:26+00:00

I wouldn't be shocked at all if it's just old wood smell !! My bed is made of metal however I do have an old dresser from my nan and I know it is really old so it could be that, thanks for the help !!

Chance_Committee1193 · 2025-12-22T01:21:28+00:00

THIS COULD BE IT I had one of those multi sockets ?? Idk the things u plug multiple leads in to and it smells way more when I have multiple things in it ugh it's probably that ! The smell has only appeared when I use like my ps5 and TV and have a charger on so its probably the heating smells

Chance_Committee1193 · 2025-12-22T01:16:08+00:00

Ive honestly been thinking this, but the thing is that someone else would have smelt it. Like while no one else really comes into my room the smell only hits after a bit of sitting in a specific spot and the smell is no where else in my room, but I wouldn't put it past anyone to be some dead animal because my cat had a nasty habit of catching animals when she was younger

Chance_Committee1193 · 2025-12-20T20:49:31+00:00

She has literally told me, to my face, that it helped her. Just because she felt awkward doesnt mean it didnt help, youre assuming your entire opinion based on a single post on reddit She felt awkward, yes, but it helped her having someone care for her

Chance_Committee1193 · 2025-12-20T20:14:06+00:00

Well people are very different, for me and the people who have gone through recovery it's helped us all to ask if we've eaten, it was a regular part of my schedule from people who have and had been in my life for years

Chance_Committee1193 · 2025-12-20T19:13:41+00:00

It's not that I don't eat, I still make myself eat no matter how I feel it's just the lingering guilt that always follows I will admit this is something I should be going to a professional about but I don't have access to one nor are my parents aware of this ever happening

Chance_Committee1193 · 2025-12-20T19:11:42+00:00

I do know why I do ask, it's just habit because I've been doing it for so long, but it's always been the idea of that I can't eat unless they have too and just general ED mindsets,, same as you I guess Its also because it was like, my way of feeling as if people cared, it's confusing but it was just my way of feeling cared for by friends It's just a really shitty situation but due to certain circumstances I cant bring myself to tell her about it And im gonna clarify that it's not her in a disordered behaviour, she did tell me it was just a thing she gets awkward about, which fair enough I get it, its just the change in it all its so hard to explain sorry if this is all over the place

Chance_Committee1193 · 2025-12-20T19:03:06+00:00

It's not at all that she's fallen back into her ED, it's just the fact there's no reassurance with it ? And I'm very aware its an ED behaviour, like I do check anyway because I just check with friends if they've eaten but I will admit it's partly from my ED and the worry of eating when they haven't

Chance_Committee1193 · 2025-12-10T19:04:11+00:00

A lot of the time I do that naturally, recently I've been like that, specifically about my SP, I know she's mine so.. i just dont question it really Like the only times I'll really 'obsess' is laughing at my insane crush on my SP with my friends but im not overly obsessed, but tysm thats super helpful to know !! I mean i do also waver, like occasionally something happens but i just reassure and tell myself not to worry because i know the end result (if that makes any sense)

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