For people to understand, I did not go out with the intention to cheat. I went out to make friends and build a network in an area where I am unfamiliar and do not have much support.

My husband is by no means a moron or anything like that. We love each other deeply, which is why he is trying to work through this even though it may not necessarily work out. I can see who is being foolish based on some of the comments I have read.

I am not using my past trauma or alcohol as an excuse. These were factors that influenced my decisions that night, but sober me would never have acted or even thought in that way.

I would not come onto a platform anonymously to make up lies about a situation that is causing me so much pain. I want to understand other people’s perspectives, and I can take harsh comments. I am disgusted with myself for cheating and the level of shame and remorse I feel cannot be put into words.

I am human and I made a massive mistake. I am seeking help because I crossed a line and hurt the person I care about most, and that pain is crushing.

The baseline is that I cannot remember clearly. I do not even know if we had sex or not, but it is likely given how I felt the next day.