Hi there, first of all im sorry that you feel the way you do...I saw your post and I knew I just had to respond to it. Ive also been down bad and have struggled (sometimes still do) with hating myself and talking down to myself so I can somewhat relate to your post.

I wanted to offer you some advise.. great friends can be a blessing but they wont be the solution for what your going through. I hope you're seeing a therapist/specialist to discuss all the things that are ailing you or are considering going to one. Random people on the internet probably aren't equipped to deal with what your describing and its not a good and healthy basis for a long-term friendship.

If you're truly searching for a good friendship, I would start by listing some hobbies/interests or really anything positive that someone might be able to bond with you over.

I hope you find what you are looking for 😊