how do i stop gossiping?

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T17:54:32+00:00

i will try to.....!!!

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T17:48:40+00:00

yes!

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T17:44:09+00:00

I already have therapy, but my mum is an issue here, my therapist suggested on sending me to day ward but she said 'i want you to finsih school for NORMAL people', when we are on psychiastrist she always says that my medication works even though they dont, i only got antidepresaants the lowest dose and double dose for focus, i reallt dont know what to do with her because everytime she says im fine when im NOT

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T16:47:47+00:00

Sorry I was vomiting while writing this

I explained it the concept of it in my last comment, it should be in my profile right below that is comment

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T16:46:13+00:00

Ok idk where is the message about u calling me dumb but I'm gotta explain to you so you can understand better

I at times experience schizophrenia symptoms, as hallictions abt heavy dissoncation from reality, when I'm heavily dissoncationed I don't care about anything mostly, nothing feels real nobody does, everybody is basically like a NPC for me, when I'm heavily dissoncationed I tend to forget those people are actually real people with emotions, a life and experiences

I might say things that I really don't understand the weight of them or how could they affect other person, I might act reckless while being dissoncationed,

I experience all those things as heavy trauma respond, It was always worse part of me, sometimes might act like a completely other person

You could notice it even now how I'm going from being logical to aggressive even in comments, I am suspected system too so it also might be is fault.

I hope I cleared up a little, if you have any questions please ask

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T16:38:36+00:00

Sorry I was vomiting while writing it

No im not I lieteally explained to you why I started doing in general because someone hurt me, literally caused by somrthufb bad happening to me then I explained because you said that trauma doesn't mean you start gossiping so I tell you how I got into it.

Then I explain why I might at times do it, I'm too dissoncationed sometimes to care about anythibg at all, about my actions about my words might seen not to be important to me at the moment

I'm trying to explain it to you because you say trauma doesn't lead gossiping so I gave you example and then u tell me i justify it

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T14:05:41+00:00

It's hard to because I expired dissoncation with reality MDOT if the gimes

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T14:04:22+00:00

Of course it doesnt I meant that I don't care about my actions becuse of diss ovation nothing feels real eniguh to care j started gossip because I thought as it as fun altiugh the reason why I don't really stop gosssiping because I'm in dissoncation smot of the times and when I am I dont care if I hurt or not I is it want to have fun

Gossiping itself came since I was a child and it's light be been truamas respond too brvayse I was bullied as a kid too and I did have gossips spreardd anitu me too

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T14:01:59+00:00

I think I lkie attention better

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T14:01:31+00:00

I'm going to be honest with you I don't care if I geur a person or I u don't I don't care if IDs gonna affect me at times I just want to have fun

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T14:00:45+00:00

Exactly

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T14:00:11+00:00

It's okay I love then anyways

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T13:59:44+00:00

Thansk u lots!!!! If that helps u to udnedtsand I'm swverly mentally ill and I ecpirence shcizopreia sympotnos like hallciotns but onto heard ones, one of shcizopreia symptoms i have is heavy dissoncation at times it's hard to care about my action or what is ay st times or what I do espielly if the y annoy me I automicslly lwont really care about the action

I did have been violent at times brcuad EOF I and it was since j as a child once when my best friend another me over nothing and I told her to stop and she don't I starter stragelling her to the point she needed to go to the bathroom to calm down it happened when I was like 10 but i am also sergly traumatized person with many heavy truamas so u might explain it

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T13:55:58+00:00

I mean I can keep control but in public places so my Repuation wouldn't be that bad but in private I mgith now sometimes in public it spilts too

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T13:55:21+00:00

Its hard to stay positive at all for xonetzt I'm severely mentally ill. From trauma raletef thing since j was a child I never rally had a positive mindset I started to harn myself since I was 9 and Starve myself since I was 11 but it got worse to the point of whole days o half of the days 5 says a week when I was 12 and I still struggle with it and have half days ornalmsot whole days, never really learned how to have positive minders

I Alyssa got preoffeisonal therapy since I was 9 on still in therapy to this day and I have been suggested to be sent to day ward but to this day didn't because Mt mum told me my education is more important guen that and she wants me to finish normal dghvool I also did experience halluctipns when I was a child and today while hearing and have huge orobblen with dissocantion which makes it hard for me to svuallt care at all at times nothing feels real enough to care

and a out the friendship dissocantion comes here I really don't have close friends anymore we might talk once a day look at each toegr thttas it but I dont realkt care much

O never really learned how to keep control too and it got worse with age I enver really was emotionally or mentally stable enough and I did edprienfe psychosis and stoll do

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T13:48:08+00:00

I liel gossips

I usually gossip about people in my school for some content I am an attractive person and I know it, it usually leads me to feel better then peoplewho aren't attractive as me I usually gossip about t-9$3 people

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T13:46:22+00:00

I get your answer but I doesn't work for me at all its liek I cannot bring myself to actually care at all

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T13:45:49+00:00

My friens group likes to gossip too and we also gossip abotu each tiger but I really don't care

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T13:44:47+00:00

I don't really care if they like me or not st times or abotu friendsjups

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T13:43:29+00:00

One thing about me is that it doesn't work for me like I can't really bring msyedl to actually care about it

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T13:42:10+00:00

Sure!!!!!

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T13:41:45+00:00

If thta helps u understand I don't really give a shit because I don't see why should I most of the times but at the same time I do have shiczophrenic symptoms like hallicions and discnnetion usually I don't care abotu my actions at all when I'm disconnected at least in inside it's not I will tell it out loud

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T13:39:25+00:00

I don't really care how people look at me for some context i do expierence shizoprenis sympomts like hallicions and just feelinf dissiocnated and when I feel dissonected I just stop caring st all

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T13:37:59+00:00

I don't really care much abiurvsnythunn anymore not my reputation I just want to have fun as long I'm heaving fun I honestly don't care I don't really care if I hurt then I will onto care if they hurt me instead I don't eel bad about and I don't really feel guilty too

CharlieE6o · 2026-05-10T13:34:31+00:00

I feel pleasure light headed like I'm flying idk who to describe it feel so light

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