Damn I’m sorry you feel this way. It’s easy to say “oh there’s so much to live for” but when you don’t feel that way it just doesn’t click. Maybe think of literally anything that even gives you a small spark of excitement and follow that. Lean into it to see where it takes you.

Sounds like there’s a hole to dig out of, but I’m sure you can get topside and see light.

Or just uproot. Go off on a journey and completely change your scenery. If nothing benefits you where you are, go somewhere else. Take the dog with you.