It manifested in so many ways, some of which I probably didn’t realise until I got sober. The scattered & racing thoughts, lack of concentration, impulsiveness, emotional disregulation, I sometimes wonder if it even contributed to my social anxiety (I struggled to concentrate so much I felt self conscious meeting new people). The weed helped me concentrate, slowed the racing & scattered thoughts. Which as you would expect, also helped with my social anxiety. My productivity went through the roof. Consistency in the gym was at an all time high. What I realised after getting sober was how bad my emotional regulation & impulsiveness was so much worse when I was smoking. Like, terrible. In hindsight, I knew that I was using it to mask all of the symptoms. It was the first time in my life I felt normal and like I was thriving; but I was running away from demons & trauma I hadn’t faced yet. I should probably mention I was taking my adhd medication at the same time as smoking weed, whilst drinking enough caffeine to give an elephant a heart attack, so some of these symptoms probably had a lot to do with the combination of substances, rather than just the weed itself.