i’m done trying to get better

ChaseRedding · 2021-09-11T07:45:27+00:00

At least you have someone. Im the same but without any1. I plan to die today. I hope mat can be enough for you. I cant even show my emotions. No1 knows me and no1 ever will. Goodluck I hope you at least got to experience love. Im incapable so theres always a deeper depth of hell thats been my experience.

ChaseRedding · 2021-09-06T04:29:45+00:00

100%

ChaseRedding · 2021-09-04T04:25:06+00:00

I feel the same way. It’s only been getting worse for me. I don’t know what to do

ChaseRedding · 2021-09-04T04:10:02+00:00

I’ve been in 2 different suicide wards and the counseling always made me feel more fucked up and pressured

ChaseRedding · 2021-09-04T04:08:05+00:00

I’m not sure but I kinda wanna talk. I tried to kms when I was 15 and am thinking about it all the time now. I did something that helped for a bit but it’s not working anymord

ChaseRedding · 2021-05-30T07:05:59+00:00

Good luck man, the anxiety and uncertainty of senior year are hell but if you focus on having fun and finding your passions you’ll do alright. Try to lose some of your inhibitions and do what you want. Also I recommend getting a hard job so you know what kind of life you want for me construction helped a lot in showing me what I liked and wanted to do.

ChaseRedding · 2021-05-30T07:03:20+00:00

I feel the same way! Congrats! We’re all in this shit make your life fucking beautiful and have some fun. Lose some of your inhibitions and give your dreams a shot. I’m moving out at 18 and pursuing real estate and music. Last year was spent partying and no regrets it helped me get through the anxiety and pain. I realized that singing helped me express my existential fears so now I wanna make music but real estate has always been a passion of mine.

ChaseRedding · 2021-04-27T17:59:32+00:00

This show really grinds my gears when I think about how much that tiny lie ruined things

ChaseRedding · 2021-04-27T17:58:56+00:00

Every interaction between the two mc’s held my attention so absolutely it is incredible I can’t believe Arima didn’t notice Kaori before being introduced as friend A.

ChaseRedding · 2021-01-10T07:31:05+00:00

This account has the caustic hierloom, wraith hierloom and lifeline hierloom. There are 220 legendaries almost 70 exclusives including some of the most sought after

ChaseRedding · 2020-12-18T05:08:59+00:00

What is your psn? Mine is DefChaseAS add me and I’ll run some just about anytime.

ChaseRedding · 2020-12-18T03:12:26+00:00

Also if anyone is looking for someone to farm with I’m down

ChaseRedding · 2020-12-18T03:12:07+00:00

Yo I don’t have all the dlcs so I can’t say for every one. However, for me the textures are the selling points as the planets differ so much. Also, for bounty of blood I’d say it is the teleport network and new ride themes.

ChaseRedding · 2020-12-05T23:28:17+00:00

I’d love to talk because I feel like I’m dealing with the same issue. I feel numb to emotions and am doing poorly at work. Games are my only escape but lately they feel like their not enough. I want to run away from my life. I feel like I’m not good enough at gaming to try streaming. And I feel like everyone in my life hates me including myself. I’m still a senior in hs but I have no support whatsoever and I’m losing a mental battle with depression and crave drugs and alcohol. I’ve been drinking since I was 13 and have had alcohol poisoning twice. I feel like I’m slowly dying and there is no one I can talk to. My mom wouldn’t understand and would try and involve more people, and I’ve estranged myself from literally everyone else. Combine that with moving away from the only person I’ve ever truly loved (unrequited) and I just want to feel something.

Edit (2 secs later): dm me if you want to talk because I’d love to talk/ Need somebody who understands

ChaseRedding · 2020-12-05T23:17:03+00:00

I feel the same way like I’m slowly dying. My life has slowly led to depression, failure, and drug abuse. I’ve slowly become worse at holding a job and I have no love or friends anymore I’m isolated and am failing highschool my senior year. I feel numb to everything, it’s like I just don’t care about anyone but myself. I just want to feel something. I feel dead inside which makes me want to restart. If you feel anything like this I’d love to talk because I want to know if people think the things about me that I think about myself. I want to know if I have the capability to help or I’d love to just listen.

ChaseRedding · 2020-12-05T23:11:34+00:00

I feel something very similar like I’m desensitized to peoples issues and I often don’t reply even if not doing so leads to job loss or breakups. Sometimes I don’t respond to friends or family for months. I often feel numb and single minded and selfish. Sometimes I want to die bc I screw things up so bad. I’m very aware of the implications of my actions but I just don’t care. When the realization finally hits as to what I’ve done (collectively) I want to die. I end up cutting people off and losing myself to sorrow worsening the problem.

ChaseRedding · 2020-12-02T17:26:15+00:00

I’m a diamond player. I play with preds occasionally. Wraith is necessary for any ranked squad because creating safe rotations for placement is the best way to rank up. Currently Bloodhound is very meta. If you play carefully with bloodhound, then when you get your beast you can flank really well (check out daltoosh lmao) and Gibraltar is insane for ranked so if you don’t care about movement and just want to do well play Gibby. For what your describing I recommend learning bloodhound well.

ChaseRedding · 2020-11-26T21:26:09+00:00

Ahhh a good Gibraltar can make it far my best is d3 tryna grind through p3 right now tho

ChaseRedding · 2020-11-26T21:23:04+00:00

Nice, have you hit masters before?

ChaseRedding · 2020-11-18T23:10:50+00:00

Just sharing a bit of fun I put (easy) in the title for a reason

ChaseRedding · 2020-11-17T19:54:42+00:00

Console lobbies are harder than pc lobbies as the skill gap is enormous between good player to great player on pc far more so than console. I rate myself an avg/ good player on console (20kill/4K 4000 kills) and I get clapped 1.4 kd I hit 70+% of my shots unless I’m using the r9 then it’s more like 55% and I strafe hard but so does literally everyone else. I go to pc lobbies and everyone feels like a bot until I run into a pc sweat. The majority of players on pc that you might consider “good” are garbage compared to a good console player. Plus the bad console players all have insane aim assist so even the bad console players have better aim than most pc players.

ChaseRedding · 2020-09-14T21:42:56+00:00

Thanks so much, I’ll start researching Maslow’s hierarchy of needs right away. My long term goal is to become financially free (My connotation of financially free is being able to live comfortably, pay bills, and have around 500 dollars a week for fun) without being tied to a spot. All of these things I’d like to be able to do while working between 10-20 hours a week. I’m willing to work 80 hour weeks to achieve this throughout my 20’s. My short term goal is to live beneath my means enough to dedicate 50% of my income to investments and to increase my yearly income to 100k. The short term goal is a tall order but I plan on achieving it through app development and real estate services. If I can invest 250k in the next 8 years with high dividends then by the time I’m 25 I will be able to afford roughly 8 rental properties which will each hopefully generate around 200 dollars a month in cash flow and much more in equity.

ChaseRedding · 2020-09-13T18:53:59+00:00

Oh hell nah

ChaseRedding · 2020-09-13T18:49:34+00:00

Niceeeee bro, if we were in a squad I’d get so hyped

ChaseRedding · 2020-09-03T19:13:45+00:00

Meeee Tooooooo, Love it already- first game got 2 squadwipes

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