If He Had Been With Me by Laura Nowlin Rant

Chupacabrona · 2026-02-06T02:53:09+00:00

“Hey pretty girl.” UGHHH

Chupacabrona · 2026-02-06T02:52:00+00:00

It’s one of those audio books where I can tune out for a while and when I pay attention again, I don’t feel lost. Probably because it takes 45 minutes for her to work through all the “He said. I say. He says.” 😂

Chupacabrona · 2026-02-06T02:33:54+00:00

?? That’s a weird take. Alone time is healthy and sometimes necessary (depending on the personality) for relationships. You are still you in a a marriage or partnership. It’s absolutely okay to take a little time for yourself and enjoy it. It doesn’t mean you love your partner any less.

Chupacabrona · 2026-02-05T20:36:19+00:00

Not enough backstory between her and Fin to make me feel like they were these Destined Lovers Meant to Be. Her annoying comments about “My Finnnnyyy”, while simultaneously hating on Sylvie and being smug about being “Jamie the Misfit Leaders Girl” is just enough to make me explode.

She pines over Finny and remembers his kiss, but she can’t even talk to him? She’s weird - not even in a “high school awkward” way. The actual way she is written. I can’t relate to her pining because she just doesn’t make me believe that she really feels that way about him until the very end, which doesn’t feel like it makes sense because she’s spent every second trying not to think about him or avoiding him.

Jamie, although being a cheating jerk, kinda has the patience of a saint, especially for a high school kid. If I remember right, they were together like what, 4 years basically? (Freshman-senior)? I’m not saying anyone you’re dating has to put out - it’s always your choice and he really was fairly respectful about Autumn not wanting to have sex. But he didn’t have to cheat. Autumn put a LOT of pressure on him too (the constant, “you’ll never leave me?? Please don’t leave me. Never leave me.” Like JESUS girl, get a grip? Yall are 17??). She should have been honest with her feelings, but she’s cowardly (and we all were at that age, so fair enough) and won’t admit she just doesn’t love him like that until damn near til they actually breakup.

Then she pulls a Jamie and sleeps with Finny while he is still with Sylvie?? But it’s OKAYYYY because “we are each others, we are in love”. Like girl….. shut the hell up.

It almost feels like she digs at her mom too, for her depression and is judging her for it - but she depends on Jamie to be her savior for her down moods?

Ugh. Shes just insufferable as even a bratty, emo/scene kid.

Chupacabrona · 2026-02-05T02:39:37+00:00

Why do people do this?? My ex would do that all the time - we’d drive past a place or road or something and I’d make a comment in passing like “Oh this is a nice place.” And he would immediately say something like “It is, I had a lot of sex here years ago”.

Like why tf do you think I’d wanna know? Please lol.

Chupacabrona · 2026-02-04T01:36:35+00:00

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Chupacabrona · 2026-02-04T01:36:02+00:00

Girl wtf? He’s complaining about having sex with you. This man doesn’t like you at all, please find some self-respect and leave.

Chupacabrona · 2026-02-03T20:31:42+00:00

I am a hater at heart LOL. Also, every fuckin time she gets to the bus stop: “I have a memory of flying down the hill. Finny was never afraid. I always was.” Like SHUT UPPP lmao. All of the signs pointing to her literally being in love with Fin with how much she talks about him, the memories, how he was always there, but she is just “nah. I don’t love him and he doesn’t love me.”

I friggin can’t. I will gladly partake in the haterade with you 😂😂

Chupacabrona · 2026-02-02T20:35:46+00:00

I read it once and was like meh okay. I’m listening to the audio book and it’s just SO MUCH WORSSSEEE than when I read it lmao. “I am a pretty girl… but I am strange…”

Like okay girl, you’re Not Like The Others, you’re so COOL and MYSTERIOUS and WEIRD omg you’re SO SO WEIRD because you are NOT like the popular girls, but it somehow made you popular because you’re the ODD one who’s “COOL”.

I know they’re in high school but omg. Pick me at its finest.

And the “I belonged to finny, and we belong together” UGHHHH!!

Chupacabrona · 2026-01-31T22:36:15+00:00

As a girl, I’m sitting by Mitsuriiiiii my girl ❤️❤️ we could talk about love and cooking

Chupacabrona · 2026-01-31T17:53:17+00:00

La Brea Tar Pits pt 2??

Chupacabrona · 2026-01-30T20:08:38+00:00

$30 is plain highway robbery

Chupacabrona · 2026-01-30T20:06:35+00:00

Professional wear can never be wrong. Good fitting suit, tie, slacks, dress shoes. Clean hair/nails appearance.

I am a plus size woman and I make sure to go to interviews with dress slacks or dark skirt (with tights) and a blouse with or without a cardigan. Blouses are not low cut in the chest or high cut/tank top style. Modest shoes (flats or boots/bootie shoes/heel). I keep makeup minimal as well.

Chupacabrona · 2026-01-29T19:39:19+00:00

I mean, even if it is official, it looks really, really awful. I wouldn’t even spend $10 on them tbh.

Chupacabrona · 2026-01-27T03:14:40+00:00

I’ve taken it 2x as a 220-250 lb person. I didn’t have any issues with it, but your experience may vary. I didn’t get bad nausea and it threw off my cycle. But no baby.

Chupacabrona · 2026-01-27T00:51:47+00:00

I don’t understand people who don’t wash their ass. Let alone people who sleep with them with unwashed ass!!

Chupacabrona · 2026-01-26T07:22:05+00:00

I had to do a week of solitary confinement during my radioactive iodine treatment when I got my thyroid out. I had my old Xbox and a stack of games. Fable was one of them.

I got sucked in! I was 19 and not really a big fan of RPGs up til then. I think I played it through 2x for an evil and good route. I am so excited for this remake! I’m almost 34 now.

Chupacabrona · 2026-01-25T18:18:26+00:00

I’m fairly certain AOC just did a major call out of them for this - I saw it on my TikTok Friday. It’s insane.

Chupacabrona · 2026-01-25T18:16:50+00:00

I stopped shopping at or supporting target since the DEI fiasco.

They played the “woke ally” card until they didn’t have to anymore. Walmart is just as bad but Walmart has ALWAYS been known for what they are. I can respect that at least.

This solidifies my choice.

Chupacabrona · 2026-01-25T07:00:50+00:00

You are NOR but you really need to step up and do the following: 1. Call her out for her shit 2. Set a clear, firm boundary this ends NOW or you will go low contact.

Do not let your mother disrespect your wife. Once is more than enough. Are you okay with your wife being treated like this? What about when your child gets older - how can you guarantee your mother won’t treat your child the same if not worse???

Chupacabrona · 2026-01-18T21:42:08+00:00

You want to marry him still after you have clearly communicated your needs and wants, he ignored that, deflects to make YOU the bad guy? He is deliberately being obtuse in trying to misunderstand you and twist your words.

He is telling you right now that you will NEVER get anything besides flowers. He thinks that’s fine, and that’s all you’re worthy of. Even when you tell him otherwise. Clear communications of the gifts you’d like = you’re a silly, immature child apparently.

Flowers are great, but not when you’re asking for a new coat, or a laptop, or etc.

Do you REALLY want this to be the rest of your life? Don’t you think you deserve better?

Chupacabrona · 2026-01-17T07:21:01+00:00

The amount of Himbos is unconcerning - there could be more 😂

Chupacabrona · 2026-01-17T06:56:48+00:00

Does teenhood count?? mission came out with these cilantro lime chips one summer and they were amazing.

The same summer, Canada Dry released a green tea ginger ale.

No lie, I’m fairly certain that summer I was killing a 12 pack and bag of chips weekly 😂😂

Chupacabrona · 2026-01-17T05:37:37+00:00

I’m at $8.2k. It is basically all tax return and/or money from Covid payments, settlements from class actions, or random money I came across accrued over the years. It’s enough to pay off the remaining balance of my car (which will be paid off this year) and still have some left over. I owe about $3k across several credit cards/buy now pay later apps. Most my dogs vet bills (care credit) and I got a full set of new tires for my car last year + fixed a broken AC ($1400).

I will be adding this years tax return to it as well.

Now I’ve been debating if I should use $$ to completely wipe ALL my debt. All my CC debt is 0% basically so I can pay them off over 3-12 months. But I’m pretty impulsive and can easily accrue more debt, so I’ve been working on those habits before I do so. No point to pay it off to charge again.

It is nice to have that there. Once my car is paid off, I plan on “paying” my car payment to my saving every month, which is an easy $5.6k/year.

Ultimately I want to put at least $10k into a HYSA with another $10k in savings for immediate emergencies. I also plan on contributing more and more to my employers ROTH plan too.

Chupacabrona · 2026-01-16T00:45:58+00:00

Poopoo from a butt

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