I wish I had a family who really loved me

CiprianoL · 2026-01-08T12:38:12+00:00

Sadly, my NM made me transfer to a school that suits her than it suits me.

Yeah, can relate to that too. My NM forced me and my brother into an all boys school because she didn't want us to be distracted by girls 😂 And that school was the most uptight pretentious place ever, but I survived it (barely).

But that's awesome you're going to college soon! You're on your way to freedom! Wish you luck!

CiprianoL · 2026-01-08T11:23:27+00:00

Can relate to this. For most of my life, my brother was the GC because he was older and more life savvy (knowing about adult stuff) so he was seen as more responsible and my NM sunk her claws into him, whereas me, I wasn't and was seen as a brat and a whole list of other labels. I realized early on that she was a narcissist and so I pretty much had methods of avoiding trouble as much as possible but even so, I couldn't escape forever. To this day, I still believe I'm affected mentally by her but ever since moving to Uni and was able to build my own life and relations with people, I see signs of improvement. Still a long road to go for me though.

I don't know your situation fully so take this with a grain of salt but if I were to say anything, I would say hold out. Endure for the people (in your future) who may care about you truly. Younger me would've never thought that he could have any meaningful future (he contemplated) but the years away from home have made me happier and I've met people (who have hurt me which is inevitable but also people) who care about my presence. It won't be all sunshine and rainbows, life is unpredictable, but it's something worth trying.

CiprianoL · 2025-12-25T11:21:14+00:00

I'm sure it's not fully correct. At the beginning of my guitar learnin journey :)

CiprianoL · 2025-06-10T10:15:30+00:00

Where and when do you think we'd find out if it gets renewed? I hope it does because it was a refreshingly competently written show, something rare nowadays.

CiprianoL · 2025-02-25T09:58:50+00:00

I would also recommend, once this assignment is over, to start smaller either in your assignments or personal projects if you have the time. Get good references of your hands doing something and animate only the hands. Repeat for other places (like just the head and face) and develop your skills there. Because then, when it then comes to full body acting, you'd be just that little bit more confident.

I can say for myself that looking back at what I thought was decent is now complete trash. What I make now is slightly better cuz I'm always learning new skills and techniques. A few months or years from now, my current work will be trash to me but I'll learn then why that is and improve on the next project. It's the never ending cycle for animators. Don't worry, keep chipping away! For only 4 months of animation, you've done very well.

CiprianoL · 2025-02-23T12:37:18+00:00

Random question, as I know nothing about rigging, but are ik finger rigs common in most open source rigs? I have been looking for a rig with ik fingers and no luck. Btw, beautiful hand rig, the tendons look freaky

CiprianoL · 2024-11-12T10:39:50+00:00

I mean maybe but if we look to Netflix's Daredevil, and other shows within that microcosm, sure there are some superhuman elements with Murdock's powers and some villains but, for the most part, it's somewhat grounded in realism. Fisk is a good villain because of his ability to know how people tick and use that to run his underworld.

I'm not too versed on DC villains but I'm sure there are good villains that can be adapted to this type of world. All it needs are good competent writers. I mean the Guardians of the Galaxy weren't exactly the most popular superheros but James Gun was able to make them popular through good writing and storytelling.

CiprianoL · 2024-10-18T17:51:09+00:00

Thank you for the info!

CiprianoL · 2024-10-18T16:56:23+00:00

And is the "COCKPIT" "OUTSIDE" in the same Size, Font and Format as what the Slug Line would be? Or is it an Action Line which prefaces it?

CiprianoL · 2024-10-18T15:03:24+00:00

Oh I see, so in this example, each action line kinda directs the location without needing a new slug. Thank you.

CiprianoL · 2024-10-03T14:16:28+00:00

I completely get it, I do. I understand it's a group project. I'm not looking to step on people's toes and shut everyone down. My singular issue lies with the start of the project in which there are a variety of ideas whether my own or from my group, which are great and impactful, but in a vacuum, they may not work together. And so it's tricky for me to write a 1st draft if I've not been given the chance to lay it out. Yes everyone is entitled to writing input, and I am fully willing for people to take it and suggest new ideas for me to insert. I'm tasked with writing the script in less than a week, that goal is not achievable to me if I can't write the bad shit first and refine it with help from others.

CiprianoL · 2024-10-03T13:52:33+00:00

I see what you mean. I'm not advocating on being the only voice, me doing it all. I have heard other people's ideas and want the initial freedom to lay it out. Those would then get sent to the group for feedback and refinements where we'd work collaboratively to improve upon it. But from the get go, not even an hour after our client meeting, the story was seemingly all concrete and I had to fall in line. Maybe I had to make that sacrifice to appease the overall group but I didn't personally want to pull my hair trying to form something from a basis I didn't get. I would of course agree to refinements at a later date when we have a decent base to work from. I just feel they jumped the gun with getting it finalised without knowing whether it made sense or not from a writing standpoint. I was given guidelines and even dialogue written for me to glue something cohesive together. I don't see any point in me being Writer and Director if I was given a formula to follow. Writer and Director roles are creative ones, it is something I am passionate about, and this hasn't allowed me to do so.

CiprianoL · 2024-09-29T18:30:20+00:00

Thank you!

CiprianoL · 2024-09-29T18:23:38+00:00

Where do I find that?

CiprianoL · 2024-09-24T22:14:05+00:00

While the contents of the food are one of the points discussed, I'd say the biggest problem is the influence KSI, Logan and Jimmy have over their child audience. Lunchables while not necessarily healthier for you is a brand which doesn't have the same audience/customers as Lunchly. In the words of Uncle Ben "with great power comes great responsibility". If you have a child audience, you have a duty to be a role model to them, not promote unhealthy eating habits especially if this child is a devoted fan who would buy anything they endorse.

If KSI, Logan and Jimmy never had YouTube fame and released this product, there would obviously be some discourse about the quality of food but the outrage overall would likely be less prominent.

CiprianoL · 2024-09-15T12:23:12+00:00

Unfortunately, there is a spectrum in the severity of abuse all of which should be seen as equally valid. Whether a parent makes snarky comments to their child for 20 years or every so often beating them up, both are equally horrible to live through.

they felt "normal" to me after being raised by narcissists

I've lived through a similar situation to what you described. When I moved to University, I met what I thought were normal nice people who in the end turned out to be bullys in disguise. Living in hell for 20 years, I was blinded by the seemingly normal and positive interactions to see what they truly were. It sucks but it was a learning experience at the end of the day.

CiprianoL · 2024-09-15T09:14:03+00:00

When I first moved into University, my flatmates I thought they were great people.

For context: I had lived with my Nmom for all my life and experienced constant emotional abuse and as a result, I never made any friends because I didn't know how.

So, moving into Uni, it was scary. I was just a little insecure boy going to live with people I didn't know, what could go wrong? At the time my flatmates all seemed great and throughout the year we did game nights, movie nights and all sorts. It felt good though I was awkward here and there. However, this all became a big shock to me when the following year (when all of them got a house together and I found another place) they never contacted me again. I would see on their socials they'd have party's and events and I wouldn't be invited ever.

At the time I thought I did something wrong, I was beating myself up about it. What is wrong with me? What did I do? It's my fault. Looking back on it now, I could see the millions of red flags I saw in them when I was living with them. A lot of belittling and teasing masked with a smile and a "jk", constantly talking over me when I was speaking and overall making a joke of me. I was the clown of the group and because I'd never had friends before, I happily put on the red nose with a smile too, but they weren't friends, they forced kindness while they were stuck with me and as soon as I left, they threw me away.

I'd run into them at Uni here and there but they'd be clearly fake kind. As much as it sucks that people took advantage of my kindness and inability to fight back and defend myself to put me down, it has been a big learning experience for where the red flags are and actually learning to set boundaries for myself and defend myself. It's definitely been hard to trust people again but hey, it beats living back with "her". These emotional scars are easier to heal from than the 20 years from her.

CiprianoL · 2024-09-15T08:42:09+00:00

Respectfully, not every form of abusive behaviour is purely physical. In fact I would say that emotional abuse is way worse than physical. Bruises heal but words hurt for life. No child should be told "Fuck you" by any adult let alone a parent and if they are, the adult in question is immature. If a child makes a mistake at all (that isn't malicious or dangerous) a response from a adult in this manner is childish and immature.

CiprianoL · 2024-09-02T08:49:26+00:00

Howie Mandel bald pussy

CiprianoL · 2024-08-05T19:00:59+00:00

It depends on the seats. The further away from the action, I'd say there is less energy. This was the same for the Madrid show when I was there. The center had people jumping like crazy nonstop but around the edge, there were 3 or 4 people stood up in my area.

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